Thinky thoughts 6.06 and beyond...
Nov. 4th, 2010 07:11 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ash48I wasn't going to blab any more about the Show but this has been GNAWING at me and I figure that's what I have a journal for. I've only rewritten this about 12 times /o\. I'm finding it hard to make sense of what my brain and heart are doing.
Since seeing the 6.07 promo my thoughts have been topsy turvy. I squee'd to the roof tops after the 6.06 but now my brain is tied up in knots. Here's why.
(Spoilers for 6.07 promo...)
The confirmation that Sam is without a soul shouldn't have come as a surprise. And really it didn't. But, it's changed my way of thinking about things and I am no longer feeling quite as hopeful about the things to come.
That's not to say I'm not looking forward to episodes ahead. I'm just worried that I will keep having to adjust my thinking in order to keep finding the positive.
I've discovered that little seems to deter me from trying to find hints that we are going to see a better future for the boys. One where they will be brothers again, trust each other, rely on each other, be heroes instead of pawns, catch a break or even win the day.
I thought we were starting down that road in the last episode. But seeing what's to come I now know that we are (hee, of course) in for a shite load more angst and quite possibly a widening chasm between the boys.
*sigh*
I've been holding on to the possibility that Sam was something "Other". Totally not Sam. At all. (*g* if you saw my previous rant post you'll know what I mean). I figured it was his body without a soul but I thought maybe something else had got in. Not as a possession or as a shape-shifter but some "new". Something we may not have seen before. Something that may have started using soulless Sam for a purpose of its own. (The down side to this belief is that this would mean we haven't been seeing Sam at all this season. Which is an idea I don't really like at all).
There's been so many hints that this "thing" that has been masquerading as Sam is on some sort of mission. The deliberate lying and deflection for one. The hunt for Alphas as another. The lying became obvious and indeed the focus in the last episode. Lying is self preservation. It doesn't want to get caught out. Unfortunately, it would mean that Sam is once again a victim (but when aren't they?! *sigh*), but it gave me hope for a quick resolution.
By having Dean discover that he's been riding around with something other than Sam was exciting because he was (finally!) a step closer to ridding us of this new monster and much closer to finding Sam. Which means we still have plenty of time to have "real" Sam back and get on with his side of the story.
But alas It's seems Sam without a soul IS his story and that saddens me quite a bit.
Because this is not JUST Sam without a soul. It is Sam on a mission that doesn't (at the moment at least) look like it's for any sort of good. Maybe even evil. (?) (Whereas S4 Sam was heading down the wrong path but for a perceived and honorable good).
If Sam had simply returned "empty" then there was probably no reason for him to not tell Dean he was back. Or use Dean as bait as he's done. Or lie. Continually. Does not having a soul mean you feel nothing? Make you evil? Make you lie? Be deceptive? Turn you into a human "monster"?
And this is where I'm torn. The prospect of Show exploring the notion of soul is pretty interesting. It will no doubt create a lot of discussion and debate and that in itself will be a lot of fun. But. Will watching the show continue to be the angst driven ride that, quite honestly, is wearing very thin. For me anyway.
Because, we are indeed in for an angst fest.
Where's Sam soul? In hell? In heaven? In limbo? No matter where it is at some stage it will be returned (I do have faith that Sammy will be brought back to us at some point PLEASE!!!) and then we will have the fallout with Sam feeling guilty (again). I doubt Sam will come back happy about what he's done without a soul. (I absolutely maintain that Sam would not have left Dean thinking he was rotting in hell for a year, nor would he have let him be turned into a vamp if he was "normal").
Sam will no doubt feel guilty because he's made those decisions, soul or not.
Unless of course we are in for a completely changed Sam. Which yeah, could well be possible *SIGH*
And Dean. Once AGAIN not being able to trust the "Sam" he's riding around with. *HUGE SIGH*
And AGAIN being hurt by Sam *EVEN BIGGER SIGH* On the top of my wish list this season was they would stop making Sam hurt Dean. But holy hell. Could they have made it any worse?! I thought the boys had reached the depth of their divide in Season 4, but this. They are not even in the same room together. :((
And I know we may be able to witness their love and devotion to each other by watching the pain Dean will no doubt be experiencing by having this empty (dare I say) evil!Sam, but... *sigh*... that will be such hard viewing. I think Lisa's words to Dean were spot on. Theirs is not a healthy relationship. (Whhaaaaaaaaa. I WANT it to be!! At least something close to "we keep each other human" sentiment.)
I figure it'll take a while to find Sam's soul and in the meantime we have to live without Sammy sharing his life with Dean.
*sadface* I tune in to see them together. Working the cases, fighting the badies, having their road side chats.
Of course. I could be wrong and really I should wait until Friday to make judgment calls. It just seems logical to me that they will now have a few episodes searching for Sam's soul. Dean will know that essentially this is Sam but will not be able to trust him. Sam will still be on some sort of mission and therefore keep being deceitful. (sound familiar?)
And when they find his soul what sort of condition will it be in? Will Sam be back looking for redemption? Again. Or will his soul be tarnished, half way to becoming "demon"? (I did briefly entertain the idea that Dean will have to re-teach Sam what it is to have a soul. Could a soul be reborn? But I very much doubt that's on the cards.)
Or maybe I'm just being pessimistic. (Hee, probably a realist knowing the Show!)
I do love my show. I just wish it wouldn't hurt my brain and heart quite so much.
Since seeing the 6.07 promo my thoughts have been topsy turvy. I squee'd to the roof tops after the 6.06 but now my brain is tied up in knots. Here's why.
(Spoilers for 6.07 promo...)
The confirmation that Sam is without a soul shouldn't have come as a surprise. And really it didn't. But, it's changed my way of thinking about things and I am no longer feeling quite as hopeful about the things to come.
That's not to say I'm not looking forward to episodes ahead. I'm just worried that I will keep having to adjust my thinking in order to keep finding the positive.
I've discovered that little seems to deter me from trying to find hints that we are going to see a better future for the boys. One where they will be brothers again, trust each other, rely on each other, be heroes instead of pawns, catch a break or even win the day.
I thought we were starting down that road in the last episode. But seeing what's to come I now know that we are (hee, of course) in for a shite load more angst and quite possibly a widening chasm between the boys.
*sigh*
I've been holding on to the possibility that Sam was something "Other". Totally not Sam. At all. (*g* if you saw my previous rant post you'll know what I mean). I figured it was his body without a soul but I thought maybe something else had got in. Not as a possession or as a shape-shifter but some "new". Something we may not have seen before. Something that may have started using soulless Sam for a purpose of its own. (The down side to this belief is that this would mean we haven't been seeing Sam at all this season. Which is an idea I don't really like at all).
There's been so many hints that this "thing" that has been masquerading as Sam is on some sort of mission. The deliberate lying and deflection for one. The hunt for Alphas as another. The lying became obvious and indeed the focus in the last episode. Lying is self preservation. It doesn't want to get caught out. Unfortunately, it would mean that Sam is once again a victim (but when aren't they?! *sigh*), but it gave me hope for a quick resolution.
By having Dean discover that he's been riding around with something other than Sam was exciting because he was (finally!) a step closer to ridding us of this new monster and much closer to finding Sam. Which means we still have plenty of time to have "real" Sam back and get on with his side of the story.
But alas It's seems Sam without a soul IS his story and that saddens me quite a bit.
Because this is not JUST Sam without a soul. It is Sam on a mission that doesn't (at the moment at least) look like it's for any sort of good. Maybe even evil. (?) (Whereas S4 Sam was heading down the wrong path but for a perceived and honorable good).
If Sam had simply returned "empty" then there was probably no reason for him to not tell Dean he was back. Or use Dean as bait as he's done. Or lie. Continually. Does not having a soul mean you feel nothing? Make you evil? Make you lie? Be deceptive? Turn you into a human "monster"?
And this is where I'm torn. The prospect of Show exploring the notion of soul is pretty interesting. It will no doubt create a lot of discussion and debate and that in itself will be a lot of fun. But. Will watching the show continue to be the angst driven ride that, quite honestly, is wearing very thin. For me anyway.
Because, we are indeed in for an angst fest.
Where's Sam soul? In hell? In heaven? In limbo? No matter where it is at some stage it will be returned (I do have faith that Sammy will be brought back to us at some point PLEASE!!!) and then we will have the fallout with Sam feeling guilty (again). I doubt Sam will come back happy about what he's done without a soul. (I absolutely maintain that Sam would not have left Dean thinking he was rotting in hell for a year, nor would he have let him be turned into a vamp if he was "normal").
Sam will no doubt feel guilty because he's made those decisions, soul or not.
Unless of course we are in for a completely changed Sam. Which yeah, could well be possible *SIGH*
And Dean. Once AGAIN not being able to trust the "Sam" he's riding around with. *HUGE SIGH*
And AGAIN being hurt by Sam *EVEN BIGGER SIGH* On the top of my wish list this season was they would stop making Sam hurt Dean. But holy hell. Could they have made it any worse?! I thought the boys had reached the depth of their divide in Season 4, but this. They are not even in the same room together. :((
And I know we may be able to witness their love and devotion to each other by watching the pain Dean will no doubt be experiencing by having this empty (dare I say) evil!Sam, but... *sigh*... that will be such hard viewing. I think Lisa's words to Dean were spot on. Theirs is not a healthy relationship. (Whhaaaaaaaaa. I WANT it to be!! At least something close to "we keep each other human" sentiment.)
I figure it'll take a while to find Sam's soul and in the meantime we have to live without Sammy sharing his life with Dean.
*sadface* I tune in to see them together. Working the cases, fighting the badies, having their road side chats.
Of course. I could be wrong and really I should wait until Friday to make judgment calls. It just seems logical to me that they will now have a few episodes searching for Sam's soul. Dean will know that essentially this is Sam but will not be able to trust him. Sam will still be on some sort of mission and therefore keep being deceitful. (sound familiar?)
And when they find his soul what sort of condition will it be in? Will Sam be back looking for redemption? Again. Or will his soul be tarnished, half way to becoming "demon"? (I did briefly entertain the idea that Dean will have to re-teach Sam what it is to have a soul. Could a soul be reborn? But I very much doubt that's on the cards.)
Or maybe I'm just being pessimistic. (Hee, probably a realist knowing the Show!)
I do love my show. I just wish it wouldn't hurt my brain and heart quite so much.
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Date: 2010-11-04 08:18 pm (UTC)I don't know if this will help at all but here is one possibility that a very artistic friend of mine came up with. Hee.
But you bring up a lot of good points. I'd like to think all will be well once they get Sam's soul back- but he HAS been up to something- beyond just not having a soul. He's been such a relentless hunter and has knowingly put loved ones in danger. Knowingly lied. I still wonder if something isn't taking over his empty vehicle with or without his knowing. Or if this is just Sam without his essence. Driven purely by instinct with no emotions or thoughts for the consequence- just do what must be done and not be stopped.
Oh I want our boys back and back together! SOOOOOON! (I bet it won't happen before the hiatus though) *crosses fingers and toes it won't be much longer after that*
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Date: 2010-11-04 10:17 pm (UTC)And yes to what you said. :D It's obviously a great mystery. Quite a few possibilities. I suppose I am most interested to know if there's something behind his search for the Alphas or they are just another hunt to him.
I hope we get to know that pretty soon. AS for the boys being back together. Ack! That can't come soon enough.
xx