7.04 Reaction / Review

[ash48]

So for the first time in... well, since I've been writing down reactions I am having a tremendously hard time writing anything at all (if deleting everything I've written 3 times now counts...)

I am so torn about that episode I just can't make enough sense when I write anything down.

I enjoyed. I did. There were many, many awesome moments. But I was also...um... I dunno. Disappointed maybe. Let down? The kick of it is I DON'T KNOW WHY !?! Arghhh.. that's frustrating the hell out of me.

I mean... wow... there was heaps of great stuff: angst and info, some great bro moments, Lawyer!Sam (fuck YES!!) Jo (Yay!) We had EMF and gorgeous boys looking gorgeous with their longer hair. We had Dean in chains (*guh*) and chemistry between Alona and Jensen. We had flashbacks to earlier episodes and (deliberately) lame Dean jokes and eyeroll!Sam. We even had a road side drink at the end (*hearts*). Sam was incredibly energised and competent. Dean was wooby and tired and angst ridden. It had all the ingredients...but..... I dunno....what?! Why aren't I feeling it!?

Was is that Sam's ok now? He's dealing and doesn't feel guilt and all is ok with him? (which I don't buy completely but looks like they're playing that card).

Was is that I want Dean to catch a break? Realise that he is AMAZING and has done more good than bad in his life. That his brother will love him NO MATTER WHAT! (I mean... wow... he'd rather die than tell Sam he lied to him. That is just so goddam heartbreaking!).

Was it that I was expecting Amy's ghost to return and actually watch Dean (and Sam's) reaction to that?! I was hoping for this I think. In hindsight it makes more sense that it was Jo that confronted Dean (it was a great scene I thought) , but I was expecting Amy and wondering how that conversation was going to to. I thought maybe Amy would convince Dean that he wasn't guilty. But that makes no sense as the guilt Dean felt was lying to Sam. Maybe I wanted that to be addressed. (and yet I was totally prepared for the Amy thing never to be addressed again at the end of the last episode... so no idea why I wanted to see it now).

Was it that nothing changed for Dean by the end of it all? Ah. Maybe that's it. I knew the episode was going to be about Dean confronting his past and I imagined it might be about him being able to let go of some of that guilt. I thought (hoped) that Sam would be able to convince him of that. I'm not sure I bought that Sam had any effect on how Dean felt about himself. (Maybe that was the point but if was kind of a let down I think).

Was is that it's all well and good for Sam to be feeling great while his brother is feeling downright awful? Maybe Sam knows that he can't actually say anything to make Dean feel less guilty so he's saying he's feeling great knowing that that will make Dean feel better. *shrugs*

Maybe it's a completely shallow thing where I actually enjoy it more when Dean's in control (like the fabulous warehouse scene from 7.02) and Sam is hurty and needy. It might just be that simple. Personal preference probably. (Though I do love competent Sam too and wooby Dean, but I probably have a preference for the other way around more. Or something. Damnit! I don't know.

ARGHHHHH!! See!?! That's why I couldn't write anything. (even though I seemed to have written some incoherent drivel after saying that. /o\).

This might be one I need to think about some more. Maybe read some stuff. Try and get a handle on it. Though I'd be keen yo hear your thoughts. You might be able to make me get a better handle on this one.

Comments

[yaya-wr8t3r.livejournal.com]

I think it's more that Sam is coping with his life and the situation he's in. I'm not sure he's okay per-se but he's coping and handling and letting go of past guilt. I think Sam is living in the now as opposed to wallowing in the past. Now, he's okay, he's top side with his brother, hunting things and is alive. He's still being haunted by Lucifer and is still suffering hallucinations and hell memories, but maybe that's what's making Sam okay. He's still being punished and maybe that gives Sam a sense of piece.

I'm hoping Dean tells Sam what he did, because if this is going to be eating at Dean, if this is what Dean is going to be like, then I'm not going to enjoy it. I love my boys angsting but there's a limit to the amount of guilt the boys feel. First it was Sam, we saw where that guilt went and happened. Now, it's Dean and I'm afraid he might be going down that path Sam visited. We all know how that one ended. So, I'm hoping he tells Sam and rids himself of this guilt. As for past actions he should see that he's being silly, half the time it wasn't in his control so how can he be responsible. So, yeah I'm hoping Dean gets out of this funk because I miss our old Dean. Even in S4 he wasn't this emo and he just came out of hell!

[ash48.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure he's okay per-se but he's coping and handling and letting go of past guilt.

Yeah. And it's great to see him take charge and move on. I felt that Sam had a pretty good handle on him guilt by the end of last season. though I wondered if they may have given us some other soulless!Sam falshbacks. If anything, he may be guilty about some of that stuff.

I love my boys angsting but there's a limit to the amount of guilt the boys feel

Yeah. For sure. I like them confronting all this stuff but it can become a downer if it's all we get. I take it they are pushing Dean toward some sort of break down. I'm probably hoping it comes sooner rather than later. Maybe.

Yeah Dean... it's kind weird that they're taking him back so far. If he was going to feel guilty about anything (especially in regards to Sam) it would be that he risked his life by getting his soul back. Sam said he didn't want it, Cas said it was a risk and yet he did it anyway and Sam was suffering for it. I mean, it worked out in the end, but he could have been habouring guilt for that.

*shrugs* I suppose we shall just have to wait and see...
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