New vid(let): maybe I could be saved...

[ash48]

(*eep* banner by me. I keep trying./o\)

Title: Maybe I could be saved
Vidder: ash48
Music by: Knockin' on Heaven's Door, Bob Dylan
Category: Character study
Length: 1.14m (longer vids seem to be eluding me at the moment. Idek)
Size: 20 mb
Summary: Sam may have been saved from his destiny, but he wasn't saved from the suffering.


Special thanks to counteragent the beta. Your thoughts and suggestions were extremely helpful. *hearts* and to el1ie for the encouraging feedback. (woot!) <33

Download: MediaFire || Stream: You Tube

Notes

I've been wanting to vid Sam's speech from Houses of the Holy for ages. It breaks me every time - looking back and knowing how much Sam suffered, even though he was saved from his so called destiny. For me this vid is about being able to use images to express what I think of when I now hear that speech. I could write an essay about all this - why I chose each image, the connections etc. so if something doesn't make sense feel free to ask...;)

ETA: The "essay" mentioned above. The whys and wherefores of my clips choices etc.



No money made but comments are gratefully and warmly accepted. <33

Comments

[el1ie.livejournal.com]

I hope I've already told you what this means to me, so I'll just sit here in the corner with this vid and my box of tissues and not come out for a while.

Bravo hon - THIS is what show means to me and always will. Thank you.

P.S, I love your banner, it looks lovely.

[cassiopeia7.livejournal.com]

Oh, my God. Oh, my God. This is PERFECT. Every pairing of image and dialogue, every dissolve. One of your best works ever -- and considering your works, that's saying a lot. I don't have any questions right now, but I'd surely love to read an essay on how/why you made this.

BRB, gone off to cry.

[harrigan.livejournal.com]

I love that dialogue from Houses of the Holy, so damn much! You really did it justice here. (The selection of the amulet scenes in particular resonated with me.)

Now I want you to write the essay!

[ratherastory.livejournal.com]

Saaaaaaam... ;__;

I have nothing coherent, sorry. Too busy weeping, here.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

*hugs*... you know...:) <3

I'm glad you think the banner is ok. I'm such a fraud when it comes to graphics, but I like to play...;D
xox

[stir-of-echoes.livejournal.com]

A tissue would be handy right about now.

*whimpers*

[ratherastory.livejournal.com]

Umm... so I decided I couldn't leave this alone and recc'd the vid at ohsam. Hope you don't mind. :)

[zebra363.livejournal.com]

::cries from knife wound::

[gluisa88.livejournal.com]

*Sniff* This was beautiful!

[embroiderama]

Oh man, this is heart-breaking but I love it. OH SAM.

[el1ie.livejournal.com]

Oh pish tosh you're no fraud at all - it really very fitting, suits the tone and stark demeanour of the vid.

And yes, see? I told you it was not boring, not too short and would make everyone cry didn't I? Your journal will be damp from all our tears!

[counteragent.livejournal.com]

SAMMYCAKES.

<3 <3 <3

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Wow...thanks so much hun. <3 That's lovely feedback.

hee.. I'm sure an essay would be very boring. Though I've always wanted to wax lyrical about the process of putting a vid together..

But...OMG...where the hell is that pick of Jared from? Is that a manip? *hearts* it.

[ruby-jelly.livejournal.com]

yessum... you really love, LOVE, Sam, eh?

[ruby-jelly.livejournal.com]

Amen! :(

[redteekal.livejournal.com]

*sniff* Dammit Ash - ALLLLLLLL the feelings. It strikes me here - each of their (Sam and Dean) inner struggles so vastly different from each other and yet still resonate with the echoes of the same yearnings. Sam to be saved, Dean to feel loved and worthy. There's this ceaseless desire in each of them which is heartbreaking and conversely is also the mettle and the steel strengthens their resolve to never ever give up or give in.

[lavishsqualor.livejournal.com]

omgomgomg. This is so much beautiful. SOMUCHPAINANDHURTANDLOSS. And it's beautiful! Stunning! Amaaaaazing job. <33333

[growyourwings.livejournal.com]

Wow. Just wow. Very powerful. Nice job <--outstanding.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

That dialogue is just perfect isn't it? Sam's fears...Dean's reassurances, their connection.

The amulet represents so much. I used it here because of it's connection to God in canon, but also the connection between the brothers.

Eek..essay. I always have the urge to dissect a vid and explain each and every clip choice etc, but I'm sure it would be pretty boring to everyone else....(though I might just do it one day...).

Thanks for watching hun.
xox

[cassiopeia7.livejournal.com]

I'm sure an essay would be very boring.

Never! And I'm sure I'm not the only one who'd love to know the method behind your beautiful madness. :D Dooooooo iittt! Please?

BTW, that icon's by griesmeel, but I don't know where the photo originates. I've never seen it before, myself. It IS gorgeous, though! :)

[galwithglasses.livejournal.com]

That speech is one of my favorites and to see what you did with it is really amazing. I was already pretty choked up by the time I got to the flaming eye, which almost looks like it's sparkling tears. Now I have to go find a towel to mop my eyes. Really lovely job you've done there. Seen the first time, that speech was pretty emotionally gripping. Now looking back on it with everything else that's happened to Sam, it's like being swamped by emotion and dragged under. I like the scenes you put of both Dean and Cas in here. The irony of Sam wanting the help of heaven only to be psychically scarred by it instead is really brought home.

[starrylizard.livejournal.com]

Nicely done. Love the music fading in over the dialogue. :)

[quickreaver.livejournal.com]

Got here from a ratherastory rec...SO SAD! But beautiful. (I'm PMSing, which doesn't help. ;) ) I always thought the song was moving, but since SPN? Whooooole 'nother level of melancholy. Great job!

[obstinatrix.livejournal.com]

This is just. Heartbreaking, I can't even describe. Sam!!

[deirdre-c.livejournal.com]

GLORIOUS!!!! ;__;