insta!reaction..

[ash48]

Consisting of incoherent squeeee because... DAMN!




Can I just...

LAKDGHLAK SF;ASDKJHAOIRH;KJASDFJHASIOJ!!!!!! HOLY FUCK!!! THAT WAS FUCKING.... AMAZING!! I CAN'T EVEN GET MY FEELS TOGETHER BECAUSE I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO PENT UP AND EXCITED AND HURT AND....ALSKDFH AS;LIDFASOIFMN!!!! FUCK!

Ok.

*deep breath*

That was an episode that I wished I had watched with fangirls because I needed to CLING and SQUEE and say THAT! THAT IS MY SHOW!

I am putting a disclaimer on this reaction/review post because I am not going to analyse the ins and outs of whether Dean is right or if Sam is right or if either of them are out of character. I DON'T CARE! Seriously! They are both right. They are both wrong. They are both stupid and ridiculous and BEAUTIFUL in their utter utter love for each other. THEY ARE A MESS!! (me too actually!).

AND I LOVE THEM FOR IT!

God dammit! That was some fine writing. Humour and angst all rolled into one ball!

I loved how damn OBVIOUS it was that it was going to end with one of them being possessed and vomiting HOW THEY ACTUALLY FEEL! The fact that it was so CLEAR made me SO nervous. I desperately wanted it to be Dean AND IT WAS! (I was completely and utterly unspoiled for this ep. I hope the promo didn't give too much away). This MotW made me SO EXCITED!

I could sprout for hours about Dean's motivations for what he's feeling and why and Sam's etc. There's a friggin' TON of dissecting to do after that one and I seriously hope fandom explores IT ALL! (but.. oh god... Dean is SO SO hurt and messed up and NEEDY and Sam stood up for himself and had a life outside of Dean but actually HE DIDN'T!... arghhhhh)

THOSE BOYS! The jealously of each other's "other" is astounding. Seriously!? How many times did Sam mention Benny?! IT'S MESSED UP! (and I love it!). Damn but these two have ISSUES!

Aside from ALL THAT the thing I love MORE THAN ANYTHING is that the show is still all about THEM. It remembered ALL THAT STUFF from the past. (I know it SHOULD, but for it to actually do that was nothing short of fabulous!). As soon as Sam mentioned Amy I was like... holy crap. They are tying in past story lines. THANK YOU!

Also.

I LOVE GARTH TO PIECES! What a fabulously quirky, grounded, smart and charming character. (I NEED to vid that guy!) I have a crush I'm sure!

Also, what an amazing way to "remember" Bobby. \o/ He didn't just belong to Sam and Dean. *sniff* And DJ Quail's performance was top notch. He never trivialised Garth. And how awesome to actually have a hunter who isn't full of despair.

That episode felt like part of the whole Supernatural universe. It remembered past characters and story arcs. It tapped into the angst of the brothers, it used the MotW to explore their issues, it had a supporting character that had his own agenda but also provided levity. It was one for die hard watchers like me - the ones who live these PURE brother episodes.

I have to stop now. I HAVE SO MANY FEELS! Seriously. I cried (again!). I cried because the show went there. It gave us dialogue and angst and HURTY FEELS and the brothers being so caught up in each other that it's CRAZY. I adore that they are fighting like this because it means they are still on that journey to find some sort of peace. And with at least one more (if not two) seasons to go that journey is going to be long.

I fucking LOVED that episode! (If you hadn't guessed!) I might try and be a little more critical later (I think I still want more from Sam's back story and the flash back transitions were jarring) but for the time being I am THRILLED that Adam Glass sat down and wrote an episode that was all about the UST love between my boys.


*happy hurty contented sigh*

(and now I need an angry, desperate, needy, loving wincesty fic to calm my feels *g*)




ETA: I just have to repeat (after seeing some responses)... THESE BOYS ARE MESSED UP! Why would what they say and do make sense?! They are human and therefore FLAWED! They don't make sense yet because THAT'S THE WHOLE POINT! WE know that. They have yet to learn that! Sam is OBVIOUSLY feeling guilty about his response to not looking for Dean and he's trying to DEAL with that and Dean is OBVIOUSLY still carrying some deep seated acceptance issues. And as much as we say "we've already been there" I DON'T CARE! I don't think any of these issues have been fully resolved so I'm more than happy to dig them up again gouge them out with a nail file. As long as it's about their messed up co-dependence I'm cool. (You do know I watch this on a level that isn't rational or objective yeah? Ok. We're cool then *g*)

Comments

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Yeah.. Garth is made of win. I love that he can see what the boys can't. :)

And (probably unfortunately or, er fortunately...) the boys just can't get that conversation happening. If they were actually able to have that conversation then there would be no where to go. I always come back to that. The fact that they can't have an honest conversation speaks volumes about them and who they are and what they mean to each other. They constantly protect each other and themselves. That honest conversation would mean Dean saying...I need you. I need you to worry about me and look for me. I need to matter to you. And Dean just can't say that. He doesn't want Sam to have to deal with that OR have to admit to himself that he wants that.

Ack! I sprouted all those things I didn't mention in the post. Their inability to actually say it as it is is part of the whole drama.

[locknkey.livejournal.com]

Ack! I sprouted all those things I didn't mention in the post. Their inability to actually say it as it is is part of the whole drama.

\o/ Exactly. I think they are so totally married this season (always) but there conflicts arise from their total inability to admit it and deal.