insta!reaction..

[ash48]

Consisting of incoherent squeeee because... DAMN!




Can I just...

LAKDGHLAK SF;ASDKJHAOIRH;KJASDFJHASIOJ!!!!!! HOLY FUCK!!! THAT WAS FUCKING.... AMAZING!! I CAN'T EVEN GET MY FEELS TOGETHER BECAUSE I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO PENT UP AND EXCITED AND HURT AND....ALSKDFH AS;LIDFASOIFMN!!!! FUCK!

Ok.

*deep breath*

That was an episode that I wished I had watched with fangirls because I needed to CLING and SQUEE and say THAT! THAT IS MY SHOW!

I am putting a disclaimer on this reaction/review post because I am not going to analyse the ins and outs of whether Dean is right or if Sam is right or if either of them are out of character. I DON'T CARE! Seriously! They are both right. They are both wrong. They are both stupid and ridiculous and BEAUTIFUL in their utter utter love for each other. THEY ARE A MESS!! (me too actually!).

AND I LOVE THEM FOR IT!

God dammit! That was some fine writing. Humour and angst all rolled into one ball!

I loved how damn OBVIOUS it was that it was going to end with one of them being possessed and vomiting HOW THEY ACTUALLY FEEL! The fact that it was so CLEAR made me SO nervous. I desperately wanted it to be Dean AND IT WAS! (I was completely and utterly unspoiled for this ep. I hope the promo didn't give too much away). This MotW made me SO EXCITED!

I could sprout for hours about Dean's motivations for what he's feeling and why and Sam's etc. There's a friggin' TON of dissecting to do after that one and I seriously hope fandom explores IT ALL! (but.. oh god... Dean is SO SO hurt and messed up and NEEDY and Sam stood up for himself and had a life outside of Dean but actually HE DIDN'T!... arghhhhh)

THOSE BOYS! The jealously of each other's "other" is astounding. Seriously!? How many times did Sam mention Benny?! IT'S MESSED UP! (and I love it!). Damn but these two have ISSUES!

Aside from ALL THAT the thing I love MORE THAN ANYTHING is that the show is still all about THEM. It remembered ALL THAT STUFF from the past. (I know it SHOULD, but for it to actually do that was nothing short of fabulous!). As soon as Sam mentioned Amy I was like... holy crap. They are tying in past story lines. THANK YOU!

Also.

I LOVE GARTH TO PIECES! What a fabulously quirky, grounded, smart and charming character. (I NEED to vid that guy!) I have a crush I'm sure!

Also, what an amazing way to "remember" Bobby. \o/ He didn't just belong to Sam and Dean. *sniff* And DJ Quail's performance was top notch. He never trivialised Garth. And how awesome to actually have a hunter who isn't full of despair.

That episode felt like part of the whole Supernatural universe. It remembered past characters and story arcs. It tapped into the angst of the brothers, it used the MotW to explore their issues, it had a supporting character that had his own agenda but also provided levity. It was one for die hard watchers like me - the ones who live these PURE brother episodes.

I have to stop now. I HAVE SO MANY FEELS! Seriously. I cried (again!). I cried because the show went there. It gave us dialogue and angst and HURTY FEELS and the brothers being so caught up in each other that it's CRAZY. I adore that they are fighting like this because it means they are still on that journey to find some sort of peace. And with at least one more (if not two) seasons to go that journey is going to be long.

I fucking LOVED that episode! (If you hadn't guessed!) I might try and be a little more critical later (I think I still want more from Sam's back story and the flash back transitions were jarring) but for the time being I am THRILLED that Adam Glass sat down and wrote an episode that was all about the UST love between my boys.


*happy hurty contented sigh*

(and now I need an angry, desperate, needy, loving wincesty fic to calm my feels *g*)




ETA: I just have to repeat (after seeing some responses)... THESE BOYS ARE MESSED UP! Why would what they say and do make sense?! They are human and therefore FLAWED! They don't make sense yet because THAT'S THE WHOLE POINT! WE know that. They have yet to learn that! Sam is OBVIOUSLY feeling guilty about his response to not looking for Dean and he's trying to DEAL with that and Dean is OBVIOUSLY still carrying some deep seated acceptance issues. And as much as we say "we've already been there" I DON'T CARE! I don't think any of these issues have been fully resolved so I'm more than happy to dig them up again gouge them out with a nail file. As long as it's about their messed up co-dependence I'm cool. (You do know I watch this on a level that isn't rational or objective yeah? Ok. We're cool then *g*)

Comments

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*nodding vigorously*

I loved this episode but it felt a bit clunky to me, which I blame on watching the promo. It's, like, I really wanna watch the promo at the end of every episode but this one gave too much away and I just felt like I was just "waiting" for the real action to start for most of the episode. The promos aren't always that spoilery for me. Maybe I should try to stop watching them, though . (Hard for me)

But, the bromo was fantastic. I loved that stuff was said and it had real continuity. I loved that Sam spoke up for himself. I'm a little disappointed by the idea that Dean didn't "remember much", though. What Dean said hurt and it was supposed to.

I love Garth but I have loved Garth from the get go. I loved how he called Dean out on his behavior and attitude regarding Bobby. I LOL about the civil war reenacting because people do that sort of thing around here. I mean, it's cosplay, right, and yet I don't often really think about it like that.

Sometimes I wonder about fans. I mean, do any of them have families? Is there not drama in every normal family? And, sometimes, isn't it the same drama, different day even in the most normal, functional family? If I'm pissed at my sister and we go at it, we might just bring up every issue that we've ever had since we were children fighting over the front seat of the car? And we are normal, relatively speaking. Now try and apply that to Sam and Dean with their life and death, co-dependent, not normal life.

And that's why we are drawn to them. Even with my Samgirl leanings, I love them both. I can understand why Dean is hurt and pissed even when I'm all, give it a rest, Dean. Purgatory is notoriously hard to get into, not to mention that Sam had "no idea" you were even there. At least when you went to Hell he knew where you were and, even then, he was powerless to save you. What was he supposed to do had he known where you were? The last time purgatory was opened didn't work out too well. And I can understand why Sam just stopped; why he "ran" as he put it (I think) even as I'm all, really, Sam, you just let it all go? Kevin?Dean? You really said, "I'm done." Yeah, maybe there was no way to save him but you didn't know that, either. You couldn't even research a teensy bit to find out what really happened to him? It wasn't killing you, not knowing what happened? (Inertia creeps.)

And that's why we love them, right? Because the relationship is wonderful and passionate and complex. We think about them when the show isn't even on. I have a friend that I have been trying to get into the show. The other day she said to me "you will be happy to hear that "Something Wicked" and "Provenance," with all their good backstory and touchy-feely stuff has pushed me from "this is a nice show" to contemplating Sam & Dean while I'm doing housework or driving. " Would we really feel this way if it was hearts in eyes between the two of them all the time? I don't think so because that's just not interesting nor is it in any way realistic. (Cause, no matter how out there a premise of a show is, the relationships have gotta feel real, ya know)

As for the flashbacks, I'm still thinking that they are making Sam's mental forays to his past year of "normal" as jarring and non sequitur-ish as possible for a reason . I could be totally off base but I can't help but feel that something is up with that. Dean's flashbacks seem to flow with the story or at least make some sense with what Dean is doing or thinking. Sam's seem almost out of nowhere. I seriously expect to see a thought bubble appear above his head, like a cartoon. Or like that bit in one of the Airplane movies where the plane is crashing and people are running amok in the air traffic controller room and Jacobs is thinking, "Did I leave the iron on?" Surely, it's intentional.

And I love the icon! I watched. I squeed. And now I've finally got to post, which is maybe why I'm so long winded. It was building up!

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Oh dang. Now I'm pondering the vid possibilities of "inertia creeps" where SPN is concerned knowing that it can only ever be in my head. Songs too long, anyway.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Hi!

The driving force behind me not being spoiled is so I don't have any expectations of the show. If I had known that Dean pulled a gun on Sam it would have totally spoiled that episode for me. I was literally on the edge of my seat because I didn't know how this was going to play out. I mean, it was full of anvils but I didn't care. I kept thinking... omg! this is going have these two confront each other and that's fantastic! So yeah... the fact that I don't watch it "live" means I can avoid that promo. :)

And yeah - families are not easy. We have issues in ours and I am sure everyone has an issue somewhere. Sam and Dean live in each others' pockets so there are bound to be all sorts of issues. Let along their upbringing and character flaws (and by flaws I mean the things that make us human).

The flashback notion is an interesting idea. I thought it was just bad directing or editing but if it is in fact Sam "remembering" something that wasn't really there that could be very VERY interesting. Ack...I don't know. I'll be watching for that...:)

Hee.. my icon was made for me. I wrote that on a post once and mentioned it needed to be an icon and there it was! :))

Thanks for your thoughts.
xx