Oh jeez....where do I start??!!
Jan. 10th, 2009 12:27 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ash48I'm back! Well..... sort of.
I returned from my jaunt over east a few days back but I'm only now opening LJ (for reasons I'll explain below) and I feel sooooo out of touch. You've all been so busy lately and I have no idea where to start to try and catch up.
Firstly ... the holiday highs and lows ...
The Highs:
Catching up with my family - ALL of them. Not often we are all together so it was kinda special (but also full on!)
Seeing Melbourne again after a few years away. I forgot how vibrant and interesting the place can be.
Meeting up with the absolutely wonderful![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
missyjack. This was a real highlight and I am sooo proud of myself for not chickening out! It was a first for me - putting a face and actual person behind a name. And even though I was fairly nervous about it, I had no need to be. She's as awesome in real life as she is on line and I feel privileged to have been able to meet her. Thanks again sweetie - it still brings a smile to my face when I think about of brief time together.
The Lows:
Missing my own personal space. A much as I loved seeing the family again there is nothing quite like getting home to my own space.
Seeing The Day the Earth Stood Still. I went in with low expectations anyway, but even that didn't help. At least I caught up on some much need sleep.
Having a massive argument with my husband about the time I spend on SPN.
We hardly EVER fight this was so this was pretty major and downright awful. I won't bore you with the ins and outs of this but what it has resulted in is a commitment on my part to cut back and to try (once again) to find the right balance between time for my family and time for myself.
I admit to being fairly obsessive when it comes to all things SPN and on-line SPN and I suppose I needed a bit of a wake up call to that. It's resulted in me resigning my Mod status at SVS and taking a step away from the comms I have recently become involved with here:![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
spn_sceneit and spnvidrecs. Strangely enough the video making didn't really come under fire (I think he is actually quite proud of some of the stuff I've done), but rather the reading, the emailing, the vid watching etc. I thought about going cold turkey and giving it all away, but that only depressed me so I've just to look at ways I can balance all that out.
I still hope to make vids (after all it's the only creative outlet I have at the moment), keep an eye on my lovely flist, watch my show (just try and take THAT away!!!) and pop in on SVS.
My marriage is very important to me and there is no doubt it takes certain sacrifices to make it work - from both sides.
Anyway - sorry to rant. I wouldn't normally post about this sort of stuff, but as it involves SPN and stuff I do here I thought I would get it off my chest.
I hope to catch up with everything that's been going on over the next few days. If there are any "must sees" please let me know. (Dei ... your vid is on the top of my list!!!)
*hugs* you all.
I returned from my jaunt over east a few days back but I'm only now opening LJ (for reasons I'll explain below) and I feel sooooo out of touch. You've all been so busy lately and I have no idea where to start to try and catch up.
Firstly ... the holiday highs and lows ...
The Highs:
Catching up with my family - ALL of them. Not often we are all together so it was kinda special (but also full on!)
Seeing Melbourne again after a few years away. I forgot how vibrant and interesting the place can be.
Meeting up with the absolutely wonderful
missyjack. This was a real highlight and I am sooo proud of myself for not chickening out! It was a first for me - putting a face and actual person behind a name. And even though I was fairly nervous about it, I had no need to be. She's as awesome in real life as she is on line and I feel privileged to have been able to meet her. Thanks again sweetie - it still brings a smile to my face when I think about of brief time together.The Lows:
Missing my own personal space. A much as I loved seeing the family again there is nothing quite like getting home to my own space.
Seeing The Day the Earth Stood Still. I went in with low expectations anyway, but even that didn't help. At least I caught up on some much need sleep.
Having a massive argument with my husband about the time I spend on SPN.
We hardly EVER fight this was so this was pretty major and downright awful. I won't bore you with the ins and outs of this but what it has resulted in is a commitment on my part to cut back and to try (once again) to find the right balance between time for my family and time for myself.
I admit to being fairly obsessive when it comes to all things SPN and on-line SPN and I suppose I needed a bit of a wake up call to that. It's resulted in me resigning my Mod status at SVS and taking a step away from the comms I have recently become involved with here:
spn_sceneit and spnvidrecs. Strangely enough the video making didn't really come under fire (I think he is actually quite proud of some of the stuff I've done), but rather the reading, the emailing, the vid watching etc. I thought about going cold turkey and giving it all away, but that only depressed me so I've just to look at ways I can balance all that out. I still hope to make vids (after all it's the only creative outlet I have at the moment), keep an eye on my lovely flist, watch my show (just try and take THAT away!!!) and pop in on SVS.
My marriage is very important to me and there is no doubt it takes certain sacrifices to make it work - from both sides.
Anyway - sorry to rant. I wouldn't normally post about this sort of stuff, but as it involves SPN and stuff I do here I thought I would get it off my chest.
I hope to catch up with everything that's been going on over the next few days. If there are any "must sees" please let me know. (Dei ... your vid is on the top of my list!!!)
*hugs* you all.
