Nothing like a bit of LJ therapy...

[ash48]

Ahhhh yes. LJ. There's no place like my internet home. *snuggles* I've been feeling so (stupidly) down recently and I finally got up the energy to visit LJ again and it's amazing how my spirits lifted. There's nothing quite like coming to a place that feels so comfortable.... hmmm.... is that weird?

I think it must have all started with the internet being denied me on SPN night, and thus also missing the post show squee, followed by a ridiculously busy weekend, being back at work and finishing a vid that just doesn't work. In any way. *sigh*

Which leads me to a question to fellow vidders... How often, if at all, do you ditch a vid? And not just a vid idea, but one that you've actually spent quite a bit of time on? To the point of finishing even? And if it's not working do you work it until you got it right or clock it up as a fail and move on? I realise this might be dependent on the actual vid, but maybe I'm just needing to know that I'm not the only one to make a vid that just doesn't work. *meep* or maybe I am.

I kinda didn't mind ditching my Jo and Ellen vid because I suppose I didn't connect to it so much (plus I'm thinking of resurrecting it in a different way later on - maybe), but I'm finding I do mind ditching this one because I am quite attached to it but have NO idea how to fix it. And it's pissing me off and depressing me at the same time. :(

Oh bugger. I'm wearing my heart of my sleeve. But maybe the therapy works both ways....

In happier news I finally caught up with my show and.... LOVE!!!! \o/ There's heaps to squee about but the only one that I'll mention is how impressed I was with the performances. I find myself often watching performances (probably the actor in me) and I enjoyed the honesty and convictions the actor's brought to what might have been somewhat cheesy or awkward moments. A very satisfying episode.

That's me. Strangely I'm already feeling more energised. :)

Comments

[missyjack.livejournal.com]

Can I agree with you on the acting? Both Amy and Matt were brilliant as John and Mary - and they were tough roles. Stand out too were the scenes of John and Sam, and Mary and Dean. In particualr I thought Jared did brilliantly with that amazing scne where he finally gets to tell his father he loves him. I also thought the transformation fo John to Michael was handled so well. You could sense the family resemblance to Lucifer!

Also again,Dean seems to have a lot of chemistry with his father when he is possessed!

and while i don't vid, its taken me years to get used to dropping a story i am writing, but its actually been quite liberating.

also - welcome back to LJ!

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thank you darlin'. :D

And it was the John and Sam scene and the Mary and Dean scene that really stood out for me too. I felt Jared really digging deep to bring truth to that moment - but doing it with a nice subtly. It could have easily been overly melodramatic. But Mary was the one... the way she took each of Dean's bombshells was just lovely. I can't imagine that that would have been an easy scene to do. I reckon Jensen helps - he comes across as a very giving and dedicated actor, which would help whom ever he's working with. (I also think this has probably helped Jared's development as an actor over the years as well *g*).

Fantastic casting really. *happy sigh* what a great episode. I haven't had a chance to read many posts or meta about it yet. I assuming there's lots of squee. :)

its taken me years to get used to dropping a story i am writing, but its actually been quite liberating.

Yes. It's damn hard to let go. Well, annoying that I have to really. But I figure there's also something to be said for acknowledging it just ain't working and moving on. We'll see. I still want to work it a bit. I just can't let all those lovely SamnDean moments go to waste!!

Thanks for popping in hun! <3