Nothing like a bit of LJ therapy...
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ash48Ahhhh yes. LJ. There's no place like my internet home. *snuggles* I've been feeling so (stupidly) down recently and I finally got up the energy to visit LJ again and it's amazing how my spirits lifted. There's nothing quite like coming to a place that feels so comfortable.... hmmm.... is that weird?
I think it must have all started with the internet being denied me on SPN night, and thus also missing the post show squee, followed by a ridiculously busy weekend, being back at work and finishing a vid that just doesn't work. In any way. *sigh*
Which leads me to a question to fellow vidders... How often, if at all, do you ditch a vid? And not just a vid idea, but one that you've actually spent quite a bit of time on? To the point of finishing even? And if it's not working do you work it until you got it right or clock it up as a fail and move on? I realise this might be dependent on the actual vid, but maybe I'm just needing to know that I'm not the only one to make a vid that just doesn't work. *meep* or maybe I am.
I kinda didn't mind ditching my Jo and Ellen vid because I suppose I didn't connect to it so much (plus I'm thinking of resurrecting it in a different way later on - maybe), but I'm finding I do mind ditching this one because I am quite attached to it but have NO idea how to fix it. And it's pissing me off and depressing me at the same time. :(
Oh bugger. I'm wearing my heart of my sleeve. But maybe the therapy works both ways....
In happier news I finally caught up with my show and.... LOVE!!!! \o/ There's heaps to squee about but the only one that I'll mention is how impressed I was with the performances. I find myself often watching performances (probably the actor in me) and I enjoyed the honesty and convictions the actor's brought to what might have been somewhat cheesy or awkward moments. A very satisfying episode.
That's me. Strangely I'm already feeling more energised. :)
I think it must have all started with the internet being denied me on SPN night, and thus also missing the post show squee, followed by a ridiculously busy weekend, being back at work and finishing a vid that just doesn't work. In any way. *sigh*
Which leads me to a question to fellow vidders... How often, if at all, do you ditch a vid? And not just a vid idea, but one that you've actually spent quite a bit of time on? To the point of finishing even? And if it's not working do you work it until you got it right or clock it up as a fail and move on? I realise this might be dependent on the actual vid, but maybe I'm just needing to know that I'm not the only one to make a vid that just doesn't work. *meep* or maybe I am.
I kinda didn't mind ditching my Jo and Ellen vid because I suppose I didn't connect to it so much (plus I'm thinking of resurrecting it in a different way later on - maybe), but I'm finding I do mind ditching this one because I am quite attached to it but have NO idea how to fix it. And it's pissing me off and depressing me at the same time. :(
Oh bugger. I'm wearing my heart of my sleeve. But maybe the therapy works both ways....
In happier news I finally caught up with my show and.... LOVE!!!! \o/ There's heaps to squee about but the only one that I'll mention is how impressed I was with the performances. I find myself often watching performances (probably the actor in me) and I enjoyed the honesty and convictions the actor's brought to what might have been somewhat cheesy or awkward moments. A very satisfying episode.
That's me. Strangely I'm already feeling more energised. :)
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Date: 2010-02-08 12:50 pm (UTC)I think if this vid came out of your heart but doesn't make it into the audience it must feel like a birth stuck half way. If you can't find a way to fix it or deal with it, it might help to understand your personal feelings that made you create the vid and take them back into your heart. (If this sounds like weird advice that's because I'm a weird person...)
I already told you that I deleted a finished vid and I think I gave up on one or two half way through. But with them being picvids and that way being finished much quicker I think my heart is not that attached to them. (Looks like I'm not a full blood vidder after all - lol.)
And I agree with the last episode squee \o/ (Who doesn't..)
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Date: 2010-02-09 10:53 am (UTC)it might help to understand your personal feelings that made you create the vid and take them back into your heart.
Oh man. I tearing up here. Honestly. I wonder if this is why it's hurt so much knowing it doesn't work? I don't usually get this down on myself about a vid not working. It happens. But this one....? Maybe that's it. Too close maybe...
I think my heart is not that attached to them. (Looks like I'm not a full blood vidder after all - lol.)
I am sure your heart is attached to them. I don't think anyone can find the time or inspiration if it's not. Anything creative has to come from the heart I reckon.
I know I can be overly sensitive and being down is more about the failing part than just not having a vid work. And failing to recognise that it isn't working myself. I had to have other people tell me that it's not. So it's kinda like double fail.
Right. 'nuff of that stuff.
Episode was MADE OF WIN!! I have to see it again. I usually don't watch eps again because I know I will be looking at the footage heaps when I vid, but this one.... \o/
Thanks so much darlin'. *hugs*