Nothing like a bit of LJ therapy...
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ash48Ahhhh yes. LJ. There's no place like my internet home. *snuggles* I've been feeling so (stupidly) down recently and I finally got up the energy to visit LJ again and it's amazing how my spirits lifted. There's nothing quite like coming to a place that feels so comfortable.... hmmm.... is that weird?
I think it must have all started with the internet being denied me on SPN night, and thus also missing the post show squee, followed by a ridiculously busy weekend, being back at work and finishing a vid that just doesn't work. In any way. *sigh*
Which leads me to a question to fellow vidders... How often, if at all, do you ditch a vid? And not just a vid idea, but one that you've actually spent quite a bit of time on? To the point of finishing even? And if it's not working do you work it until you got it right or clock it up as a fail and move on? I realise this might be dependent on the actual vid, but maybe I'm just needing to know that I'm not the only one to make a vid that just doesn't work. *meep* or maybe I am.
I kinda didn't mind ditching my Jo and Ellen vid because I suppose I didn't connect to it so much (plus I'm thinking of resurrecting it in a different way later on - maybe), but I'm finding I do mind ditching this one because I am quite attached to it but have NO idea how to fix it. And it's pissing me off and depressing me at the same time. :(
Oh bugger. I'm wearing my heart of my sleeve. But maybe the therapy works both ways....
In happier news I finally caught up with my show and.... LOVE!!!! \o/ There's heaps to squee about but the only one that I'll mention is how impressed I was with the performances. I find myself often watching performances (probably the actor in me) and I enjoyed the honesty and convictions the actor's brought to what might have been somewhat cheesy or awkward moments. A very satisfying episode.
That's me. Strangely I'm already feeling more energised. :)
I think it must have all started with the internet being denied me on SPN night, and thus also missing the post show squee, followed by a ridiculously busy weekend, being back at work and finishing a vid that just doesn't work. In any way. *sigh*
Which leads me to a question to fellow vidders... How often, if at all, do you ditch a vid? And not just a vid idea, but one that you've actually spent quite a bit of time on? To the point of finishing even? And if it's not working do you work it until you got it right or clock it up as a fail and move on? I realise this might be dependent on the actual vid, but maybe I'm just needing to know that I'm not the only one to make a vid that just doesn't work. *meep* or maybe I am.
I kinda didn't mind ditching my Jo and Ellen vid because I suppose I didn't connect to it so much (plus I'm thinking of resurrecting it in a different way later on - maybe), but I'm finding I do mind ditching this one because I am quite attached to it but have NO idea how to fix it. And it's pissing me off and depressing me at the same time. :(
Oh bugger. I'm wearing my heart of my sleeve. But maybe the therapy works both ways....
In happier news I finally caught up with my show and.... LOVE!!!! \o/ There's heaps to squee about but the only one that I'll mention is how impressed I was with the performances. I find myself often watching performances (probably the actor in me) and I enjoyed the honesty and convictions the actor's brought to what might have been somewhat cheesy or awkward moments. A very satisfying episode.
That's me. Strangely I'm already feeling more energised. :)
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Date: 2010-02-11 08:49 am (UTC)I think the megawail across fandom at your leaving would leave a permanent hole in the Internet.
OMG. What a lovely thing to say. *blushes* Hee! I have no plans to stop yet - unless my muse keeps doing this to me. I'm always scared that I'll keep making vids like this one - ones that just don't come up to scratch. I think the sheer frustration of that would probably stop me.
Just stay close to your emotional connection to it, and you should be able to make it bloom.
Thanks darlin'. I can't believe how "connected" I feel to this - but the realist in me knows that really no one would probably want to watch a vid that basically re-hashes all that old footage and worn to death bro!moments. Not to mention listen to the song... I don't think I would. :/
I think I need an idea that uses more recent stuff..... *ponders*....
Thanks as always for your support and honesty. You know I appreciate so much.
*hugs*