6.08 episode reaction..

[ash48]

Warning: turn back now if you want squee....



Hmmm...

I want to dance and be squeeful and all that but I just can't. In fact, that made me miss Sam MORE THAN EVER! So much so that it actually made me tearful. How pathetic is that?

See. If it had been something other than really Sam I might have held out hope that Sam couldn't be this awful. This empty. This difficult to watch. That whole scene with Sam goading that skin walker with the ball...?? *shudder* That's where I think I started to have a tear.

I get it. I do. It makes sense that they want to see what makes Sam tick without a soul. It's interesting I suppose but....it's also extremely hard. I really felt like we had reached the ultimate divide between the boys when Sam left Dean in Season 5.. but nah. This makes that look like a walk in the friggin' park.

And Lucky was a mirror for Dean. I know show likes to do that, but I just kinda went - yeah, we know that. We know Dean is truly alone at the moment. Whenever isn't he? Do you have to rub it in our faces even more? And she was Lisa and the boy was Ben and she called him a psycho and he was left to walk to streets alone...

*sigh*

The thing I did get was how completely entwined and bonded these boys are - which of course I already knew but it's always nice to actually see it. I suppose Dean should be seen to be caring more about Sam's lost soul, but really? The way Sam is at the moment must make it extremely difficult for him to connect with him. But he's sticking around. That's gotta count for something.

At least Sam came clean but it wasn't anything we didn't already know. He doesn't care. We know that. Dean knows that. I suppose the fact that he's still sticking with Dean's gotta count for something as well. :D Oh boys...

I wonder if Sam soul really is still in the pit? What an awful thought. He'd be down there long than John was. Maybe purgatory? Maybe even heaven? (I wonder what they would do if they discovered his soul was in fact in heaven? Would they want to get it back? Maybe Dean would just decide to go and join him...*g* and they loved happily ever after.. *G*)

I felt the episode wasn't as tightly directed and even edited as previous ones. There was this weak as weak cross dissolve that almost put me to sleep. (In fact for me to even notice that I must have been falling asleep..*g*). I suppose the pace just wasn't has tight as it could have been or something. I dunno. Maybe I was expecting and hoping for more. (which is silly really consider they need to do run of the mill MoTW episodes).

My worry is, how many eps are we going to get until Sam gets his soul is back? Because, to be honest... I think I'll just wait and tune in then. (of course I doubt I could actually do that..). I'm hoping before the mini hiatus which must be coming up in what? Two more episodes?

It would make sense to have it around then. I'm sure they can't have too many eps with Crowley calling the shots. I hope.

Oh damn. Don't mind me. You know that once I've had a week to mull over things and read all your fabulous posts I will feel positive again.

What I did like was how debbiel66 recent story picked up a sentiment that was in the show tonight. It's easier for Sam without a soul. It's an interesting thought. That having a conscience is hard work. It hard because it can stop us from doing things that might be expedient, but not necessarily moral or right.

Sam's always battled with that. I do like that they are exploring that and in turn examining who Sam really is. How are you going to feel Sam when you get your soul back and have to deal with the stuff you've done? Oh yeah.. guilt and redemption again probably...

Stuff I did like:

1. Opening dialogue from the guy on the phone. Hee!

2. Sniper Dean. Holy Hell! How is Dean so incredible hot this season?? *guh*

3. There were some good one liners. Can't remember them, but I chuckled a couple of times.

4. That the werewolf turned out to be a skin walker. Didn't expect that.

5. The patented SPN blood splatters. Hee! They make me feel right at home. I wonder if they have a blood splatter gun?

Um...

I did notice Sam was back to the quaffed hair look. Interesting that not having a soul makes for clean, shiny hair. I wonder why his body isn't a wreck not being able to sleep? I wouldn't have thought your soul would be responsible for sleep. If it doesn't need sleep, I wonder why it needs food? I would have thought sleep is a need the same way food is. Arghh.. remnants of past thoughts...ignore me.

There was only one line tonight that was "off" in terms of Sam. And that's when he said "my dog" to himself. I thought we might have been on to something there. Your dog Sam? How so?

I'm done. Sorry for the downer. Not really fair, but as I said once, I say it as I feel. I'm sure there was a lot more in there than I saw. If I can just get past missing Sam and The Bro Team so much I might be able to detach and not care.. (can't see that happening).

*hugs*

Time to squeeze in some vidding. That'll cheer me up. :D

Comments

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Hi there!

Firstly, no I don't mind you dropping in at all. Especially as you have shared such wonderful thinky thoughts.

I have to admit I didn't see the parallels with Sam at all, so thank you for pointing that out. It just felt SO blatantly Dean that I wasn't even thinking about how it might relate to Sam. I was so "just hit us over the head with the Dean parallel".. that I didn't see anything else.

But yes. I love that we get the idea that Sam isn't alone in this. And really? Neither is Dean. It's just that Dean feels so alone because he has neither Lisa or Sam at the moment.

In many ways it highlights just how strong Dean is (which I have never doubted) but to stick by Sam, to ensure that he isn't alone in this just shows is depth of love and commitment to Sam.

I suppose I would just love to see Sam be there for Dean also. Sam seems to be always put in the position of hurting Dean and it stresses me so. I know how much Sam would be there for Dean - we just don't see it all that often.

Again, thank you for dropping in and making such good and interesting observations. (curious about how you came across me ..?)

Cheers.
xx

[maenad.livejournal.com]

Oh, thank you!

Ah, well, I did spend a lot of the episode going 'Aw, it's your turn to empathise with the monsters today, is it Dean?' - but the two scenes at the end were identical conversations, but with different endings. And that made me feel better about the whole thing. As a Dean story, that would have been profoundly depressing. But as a Sam story it offers hope.

It's a strange way to demonstrate the value of Sam - subtract him and see what happens - but it does show very clearly, just in case anyone doubted it, that Dean hasn't forgotten Sam is important for reasons other than destiny, and he'll damn well be both of them if he has to.

Yes, it's such a tragedy - so much of Sam's struggle to assert himself centred around being able to give back. And they've not only taken that away, they've taken his desire to try. Still, the fact that it's such a betrayal is what gives me hope it can be fixed - because otherwise, Dean's still miserable, Sam's still dead in every way that matters and what's the point of all this?

Oh, um. Good question. I wandered through various communities until I found a few people who said things that interested me, then I ransacked their friends lists for other interesting people - and now I have a handful bookmarks, and I lurk quietly until I can work up the nerve to talk. At some point in this bizarre process, I bookmarked you. I do realise this isn't precisely the way livejournal is supposed to work. :)

[ash48.livejournal.com]

it's your turn to empathise with the monsters today, is it Dean?

Hee. Yes, I like the complete turn around Dean has done over the course of the show. He's almost become the "Sam" in the relationship and in some ways Sam has elements of Dean. Shoot first, ask questions later. Get the job done etc. - reminders of S1 and S2 Dean.

It's also nice to see Dean absolutely recognising what it was about Sam that made him uniquely Sam. *clings* to old Sam. :)

And they've not only taken that away, they've taken his desire to try.

Oh yes. SO sad and painful to watch. I would love to think there's a good reason (for Sam's character) that this is happening. And not just because it makes interesting TV.

Yay -I'm glad you thought I was being interesting enough to pop in. :D The thing I love more than anything in fandom is discussing the show, being open to other ideas and connecting with people. So yay - thanks for dropping in. :D