Pull me off the ledge...

[ash48]

I SO wanna spoil myself for the next episode...

It won't hurt will it? Just a little peek. See what all the excitement is about.... ACK!! /o\ Must. Stay. Strong. (mild spoilers in comments...if you're trying to be COMPLETELY spoiler free..)

I think my new favourite comm is ontd_spnparty. So much JOY over there. It's a lurker's paradise. :D

And in RL news...

I've been alcohol free for 6 weeks now! 6 weeks! That's ridiculous. Only 2 to go... (not counting or anything..) AND only .5 kg before I reach my trimming goal of 5 kgs. I am ridiculously proud of myself. I know 5kgs don't seem like a lot but man... friggin' hard to shed.

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and omg omg, the wonderful ancastar said she is going to fill my prompt at oh_sam *DIES* so excited...\o/ *bounces*

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[ash48.livejournal.com]

Well... neeearly 5kg. Not until I see that elusive 64kg will I feel like I've made it...

You must be some kind of saint...creepy...

Hee... no, just a lot grumpier. Though actually, I'm surprised I'm not even more grumpy.

And don't you go downing a whole bottle of boose after the last 2 weeks now..

Damn! You read my mind!! /o\ I am mostly definitely looking forward to a very nice bottle of wine. But, yes... not the whole thing. And I'm even going to wait until 3 days after the date I can start again (8th March). I have decided to just drink Friday and Saturday nights and special occasions. I really hope I can do that.

Thanks honey. I hope you are doing well.

xx

[greyowl88.livejournal.com]

It's hard to constantly keep control on how much/often to drink (or how much sweets and candy to eat *blushes* and *hides*). So, I think there will be weeks when it works well, and others when it won't. But you put up a great start and if it gets too much again, you can give yourself another time out, a sort of reset.

And thanks, yes, I'm doing well, even though you might have noticed my "absence". My focus was very much "on the other side" again. Which unfortunately included for some old trauma to break open again. I also spend much time chatting with my young friend (prayer video). He is a lot on my mind and in my heart all the time. So while I still enjoy and love the show to bits I'm not so much around the fandom like I used to.
I'm always fascinated with what speed you consume so much information. All the fan fiction, friends posts, the many thoughts you have that you post about. Makes my head spin.

Maybe I'm also less around the "SPN circus" because I've found my 2 soulbrothers (for real) I've been looking for my whole life subconciously. And the show has actually played a big part in getting me ready to find them. (Hope that doesn't sound like a lunetic talking :P)

So, what can I say..... *Squishy Hugs* :D

xx

[greyowl88.livejournal.com]

And thanks for thinking of me. It means a lot! ♥♥♥

[ash48.livejournal.com]

*smishes* I understand all that.. :<33 And I am happy that you are in that place. (and I'm still happy that you pop by here..*g*)

I wonder about all the fandom stuff too sometimes. But it's my main hobby and I do get such a lot of enjoyment out of it. I used to be consumed by the theatre, sometimes acting in up to 4 shows a year. But I just can't do that at the moment (soooo time consuming) so the fandom stuff fills that gaps.

I figure one day it will all settle down - when the show is done maybe.

*pada hugs*
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