New vid! Fallen

[ash48]

For dotfic Your love for Cas inspired me. (though I'm sorry if this is a bit..um.. downbeat..)



Title: Fallen
Vidder: ash48
Song: My Weakness by Moby
Category: Tribute, Angst
Length: 3.03m
Size: 27.3mb
Summary: A farewell to Castiel through Dean's eyes.

Links: You Tube | | 4Shared



I have a few people to thank for helping me out on this one. As usual I need a lot of hand holding through the vidding process. One day I might be able make and post without prior feedback (though probably not because I love that part).

My uttermost thanks to zimshan for her fabulous feedback and suggestions. Her initial response made me take a really good look at this. Sometimes one word, one thought, one note cements a direction and I'm grateful for it. Thanks SO much for it all honey.

Many thanks also to secretlytodream *hugs* Of course, I'd actually like you to transplant that part of your brain that allows me to work effects the way you do, but your wonderful feedback and help will have to do! *g*. Thank you!

And to starrylizard for feedback that helped me shape the pacing. (Jeeze... this song ../o\). *smish* thanks so much hun.

Vid Notes

This was inspired by two sources. One was hearing dotfic talk about how Cas fans felt about losing him. It reminded me that we often lose well loved characters in the spn'verse. In the past I have made vids to characters who have met their demise so I thought I'd make one for Cas.

The other was the radio interview with Guy Bee. He said that the folding of Castiel's coat was like the folding of the American flag for a fallen solder's funeral. I thought the folding was very poignant and wanted to use it as the anchor for Dean's memories of Castiel.

I got a little thinky when re-shaping this vid and wanted to show not only Dean's fond memories of Cas but also the moments that lead to his downfall. I suppose I think of this as Castiel's funeral - though I firmly believe he will be back in the not too distant future.

I hope this is ok. It's just a little tribute to Castiel. Feedback is always valued. <33

Comments

[debbiel66.livejournal.com]

This was really lovely, ash. It reminded me of what I truly enjoyed about Cas and what the show is going to miss. Gave me chills.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thank you sweetie. I had hoped to capture little parts of his character to remember him by. :)

<33

[bowtrunckle.livejournal.com]

Oh, Cas! *cries* I didn't think I was overwhelmingly attached to Cas until I saw your vid. Now I really miss him and want him to come back somehow even more than before.

I liked how you ended the vid with his broken-up image on the TV screen--it made it feel like a final goodbye to Dean beyond wherever he went after he disappeared in 7x01. It was hopeful and heartbreaking at the same time.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thank you! I have to admit to feeling like I wasn't overally attached to Cas either. But now that 's "gone" (because I'm sure he's not really...) looking back I can see how much I did enjoy his presence in the show.

The last bit is certainly open to interpretation. In the Show it was Cas reaching out to Dean the only way he knew how. So I felt it was a fitting way to end. (And maybe just a little hopeful that he is still out there somewhere..;)

Thanks so much for your comment. <33

[serrico.livejournal.com]

Oh, *Cas*. Nicely done!

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thank you! :)

[dotfic.livejournal.com]

Well, this comment's going to be woefully inadequate, but THANK YOU. ♥ Oh, Cas. :( This vid is sad, but also uplifting, and you shook out the whole character, looked at his multi-season struggle, his friendship with Sam and Dean, as well as when he went off the rails, and back on the rails, and it's a complex mix that reflects this character beautifully. That you captured the good things as well as the ways he screwed up but that ultimately his story was driven by friendship-love-trying to do the right thing. The editing and the build of it and the music being JUST SO, wow. And The way you used the folding of the coat and kept returning to that.

It feels hopeful too--that you had Cas communicating to Dean on the TV screen at the end, it feels like your wink-nudge hey, he's not GONE. Or maybe it's how he'll never be gone for Sam and Dean, and for the Castiel fans.

I needed this vid right now, given everything and I'm so moved that our conversation contributed to inspiring you to make this. *hugs*

[ash48.livejournal.com]

*hugs* thanks so much honey.

This vid started as a rather simple idea and then kinda grew into trying to look a little more closely at his character. The both times I have vidded Cas I'm struck with the complexity of his character. And in many ways he should be complex because he's an angel. And meeting and knowing the Winchesters would indeed make your life...er... complex.

I suppose I really wanted to show a little bit of everything. The way he touched the boys - both physically and mentally, his soldier like fighting, his sacrifices and mistakes.

it feels like your wink-nudge hey, he's not GONE.

Hee! Exactly. It's open to interpretation, but my thinking was that he's not gone. He's out in the ether somewhere.... :)

I'm glad it moved you sweetie. I was hoping that it wasn't tooo depressing. I wanted a mix of hope and sorrow.

<3333

[virtualpersonal.livejournal.com]

Beautiful vid bb, very emotional and the music was absolutely fitting.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much. So glad you thought so hun. <33

[tiniowien.livejournal.com]

I loved that. :) It was quite poignant and well-timed. You managed to convey a lovely melancholy sweetness throughout and I loved the cuts of both blood sigils being drawn overlapping together - of all the Castiel videos I've seen, I've never seen that done before so kudos on the originality! :D

The coat-folding quote is amazing too! Thanks for sharing. ^^

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much hun! I haven't actually watched many Cas vids so I had no idea what has been done or not. I was struck how similar those scene were - but also how different. Cas risking himself to save Dean and then Dean basically condemning Cas to his fate.

The quote was something I really wanted to use from the beginning of making this. I love how broken up Dean was and the way he grips the coat.

Thanks so much for watching and commenting honey. <333

[callme-k.livejournal.com]

The scene transition at 2:29 is all kinds of achy. Poor faithful, yet misguided Cas. I think the emotion is spot on, and I loved the ending; the parallels throughout as well.

I'm in this weird limbo land where I don't think I'm missing him yet because, like you, I firmly believe he'll be back.
He better be!

[ash48.livejournal.com]

The scene transition at 2:29 is all kinds of achy.

This was a last minute addition. I had another clip in there initially (which I loved) but then thought it would be better to show the remorse of Cas. The acknowledgement of what he had done. It was such a sad moment in the episode.

He has to be back. It would seem a shame to have let him go like that without a chance for redemption. I am hoping he'll have something to do with them killing the big bad - but... who knows.

Thanks so much for watching and commenting sweetie.
<33

[greyowl88.livejournal.com]

Your "just a little tribute" is so heartbreakingly beautiful! It amazes me how well you've captured him in both your Cas-vids, since you never used to care all that much for this character.
For this vid it was worth having Cas die (for a little bit). But now I WANT HIM BACK!!!

(sorry for crying all over your YT and LJ. :P )

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thank you darlin'. <33

It's funny that I keep saying that I've never felt connected to Cas and yet I've made a couple of vids of him now. Each time I feel like I discover a bit more. I choked myself up a couple of times making this. It just seems such a sad way to go.

Hee... sobbing emoticon! *hands tissues*

Thanks again hun.
*hugs*

[e0wyn.livejournal.com]

;_______;
Great work, thanks so much for creating this... it's a great tribute

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much. :D

xx

[starrylizard.livejournal.com]

Oh yay! Can't watch it here at Sis' place, but shall dl once I get home. Can't wait to see how the finished product turned out. :)

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Hey! Oh man.... I really fought with this one. I know it could probably do with some more tweaking...but I gotta leave it alone at some point. :)

Thanks for your feedback and thoughts hun. I really appreciated it. <33

[geckoholic]

Oh man. *is all weepy*

[ash48.livejournal.com]

*hands tissues*

*hugs*
xx

[cienna.livejournal.com]

Wow, that was beautiful! I've been wanting to see a vid using the scenes from the beginning of season 7 and you captured it perfectly!

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much. I'm thrilled you thought so. <3

[el1ie.livejournal.com]

Stunning.

I might come back one day and talk about this, but right now a moment of silence I think...

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thank you darlin'. Hee... feel free to come back and talk anytime..;) But yeah... Cas played rather a major role in the last few seasons and it seems like such a sudden and sad departure.

A moment of silence is indeed required...

xx

[jenab.livejournal.com]

This is a lovely tribute to Castiel.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thank you! <3

[camille-is-here.livejournal.com]

So that made me a bit misty, and I am not even that much of a Castiel fan. Liked him, but wanted the show to be more consistent about his power and deal with that level. But I miss him and the vid made me remember that.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Hi,

You actually mirror my thinking on Cas. I struggled to ever really connect to him but I think that's because I never felt he had a consistency. Or that they really explored the real friendship between Dean and Cas.

But I also know that I'll miss Cas.

Thanks so much for watching and commenting. :)

[stir-of-echoes.livejournal.com]

That was truly beautiful it made the hairs on the back of my neck stand up.

Beautiful.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much sweetie. I'm thrilled you thought so.<33

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much! :D

[asherahseren.livejournal.com]

This is so..perfect...ç__ç <3

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thank you! :D

Oh..icon..<3 (hee.. and I don't even ship Dean/Cas..but that's so damn cute!)

xx

[montisello.livejournal.com]

Incredible. I miss him so much.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thanks. And yes. <3

[etrix.livejournal.com]

*sniff* you made me wibble!

Cas was such a powerful character and he went through so much, changed and learned and grew, but didn't figure out the real lesson until too late. When you have friends, use them! They'll be there for you.

Excellent tribute.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much.

And yes. That's was the very thing. That final lesson...to trust. That's why I feel they need to do something with Cas still. Give him a chance to either redeem or rise above. Not sure. It'll be interesting to see what happens.

Thanks so much for watching and commenting.
xx

[galwithglasses.livejournal.com]

Oh Ash, another great vid. It made me choke up which didn't happen when I watched 7.02. Sometimes in order to really mourn, it helps to have some sort of formalized ritual like a funeral or memorial service. For Cas, we were left with an empty trenchcoat, grieving friends and real uncertainty about whether we'll see Cas again. For me, this vid helped as the memorial for Cas that we didn't get from the show. He was such an awesome, complicated character. To have your vid show Cas through the eyes of Dean, someone who cared for him, it really works to bring out why he was such an appealing character. I think we'll see him again but it won't be the same as having him pop in every couple of episodes.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Wow... thank you so much for your thoughtful comment. His departure felt so sudden. No real chance to mourn or understand what went wrong. Nor to understand completely what it's meant to Dean. I am hoping that maybe they have something up their sleeve in regards to it all. We shall have to see.

Thanks so much for watching and commenting. <3

[zebra363.livejournal.com]

That made me feel even more sad for Dean that he's lost his friend! The music and the relatively slow pace of many of the clips were perfect for a memorial/tribute vid.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much! :) I think Dean really felt the loss of Cas. It was such a small moment in the show, but his gesture of folding and keeping the coat was very poignant I felt.

I really struggled with the pacing of this one. My original cut was a lot slower. I sped it up but the music was damn tough...it's slow, but it has these definite pulses and beats. I'm glad you felt the pace worked for the vid.

Thanks so much for watching. :)

[littlehollyleaf.livejournal.com]

Oh, this was wonderful. I especially love the parallels between Cas painting the sigil to banish Zachariah and rebel for Dean and Dean painting the symbol to banish the souls from Cas. Oh, my poor boys!

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much. :D I was struck by the similarities in those two scene and liked the idea of putting them together. I'm really glad you liked them. :D
xx

[secretlytodream.livejournal.com]

I know I've already told you how much I loved it, but I just wanted to drop by AND SAY IT AGAIN :DDD ♥

haha and yeah have a part of my brain! TAKE AWAY FROM ME AT LEAST A PART OF ALL THOSE IDEAS *____*

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thanks BB! I really appreciated your thoughts and help. <3333

And NO! I don't want the ideas part... man... I want the ideas to go away so maybe I can stop.

I'll just have the bit that allows me to work that footage!

*hugs*
xx

[murron.livejournal.com]

And there I thought I was done crying my heart out. No, apparently not.

Beautiful, beautiful work!!! I love how complex this is, showing Cas fighting, protecting the boys and making bad decisions, too. Then of course you included all these moments where Dean and Cas look at each other and I. Just. Goddamn.

Including the picture from Abandon All Hope is a very nice touch.

Thank you so much for this wonderful, amazing vid!

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much for your lovely feedback. I'm so glad it moved you. I tried to get a little bit a everything of Cas - he went through so many incarnations and situation.

The AHH pic came about after discussion with dotfic about the importance of family. For me, this was the closest they all got to having a family. An extended family. And Cas was part of that.

Thanks again for such a lovely comment. <3