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[ash48]

I hated that beyond words.

I am literally sobbing as I type because this actually feels like the end.

What happened to my beautiful, bromancy, interesting, scary, intriguing show? My show that had "something up its sleeve", my show that only ever had brothers at odds with each other FOR A REAL REASON! My show that had brothers who loved each other. My show that knew it's history. My show that WAS NEVER a soap opera. My show.... *sobs*

My heart is breaking so much and it fucking hurts.

I trust that I missed something. To be honest I don't even have the energy to rant. I am so disappointed and hurt. The season cliffhanger is Amelia walking back into Sam's life... just. No words.

I have never witnessed so much distrust, disloyalty, dis-LOVE between the brothers....EVER. Even when they were fighting at the end of S4 there was at least passion. This was just...nothing. All those things without any reason. They were hardly even on the screen together. I think I even detected real hate between them. And if that's supposed to make me tune in to see how they resolve it?...well...yeah. Not so much.

The show has changed. I suppose it had to. So many of you already saw it. I glimpsed it and clawed myself back. But this is what the show has become and that saddens me so, so much.

I know I shouldn't post. I know you want positive stuff. But in one episode it cemented everything I feared this season would turn into. A boring soap opera.

(I will say that it was beautifully filmed. And if it was a soap opera then I am sure it was beautifully written).

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[galwithglasses.livejournal.com]

I skimmed it and even on fastforward, I felt bad enough that I watched the initial confrontation with Benny and Dean, the Sam and Dean call at the end, weeping Elizabeth, dead Martin and Amelia showing back up. I'm probaby not going to watch the full thing until after hiatus and things have moved on, if I watch it at all. I'll probably read the transcript if anyone is kind enough to do one. I wish the show was still about scary stories. I miss wendigos and scarecrows. RL has been pretty sucky lately and I don't have the emotional fortitude required to deal with these guys hating each other. I also feel like whiplash to go from last week to this. This was the episode that was obviously supposed to come right after Southern Comfort and the fight rages on. I can't tell if any of these guys are characters I can find any way to relate to any more. I wonder how J2 are doing with this season. I can't believe I would actually miss soulless Sam. I'm going to go get on with my life now, I guess......Thank goodness The Hobbit opens next week and I can have a distraction. Sean Bean must be dying in something this week to cheer me up. Oy!

[ash48.livejournal.com]

*massive hugs* Oh hun. I am so sad you are feeling this too. Worse if RL is sucky too. The show should be an escape - a place to hide from our RL woes.

This is exactly the episode that should have followed Southern Comfort. If it had I probably wouldn't have had the big issue I have with it. In fact, the episode has strength but it's such a drama I felt like I had tuned into another show.

I can't tell if any of these guys are characters I can find any way to relate to any more.

That's it for me totally. Dean telling Benny not to underestimate his little brother was not said with pride but just fact - more of a warning to Benny. And when benny says "you have family" Dean says "yeah" in a way that was almost distain. There was not love there at all. It was all "yeah - if you consider Sam family".

SO SO painful and horrible. If that had been said in S5 it would totally fit in. In this season it just makes no emotional sense. They are both so bitter. Dean bitter than Sam didn't look for him and Sam is bitter that his brother, in fact, alive. (Jared said that in the pre-season spoliers. I just couldn't believe it, but it seems it's true).

Jared tweeted about how awesome the episode was. I think he likes it when the brothers are fighting. IDK. If I want siblings fighting I can just look to the real world. I don't need to see it in my favourite brothers. :(((

Oh man... you know the thing that really saddened me. The bedhead is one that gets used all the time. it's one of my fav bedheads and all I could think was how lazy it was that they keep re-using props rather than get excited about it. Whaaaaaaa so sad.

(There WAS some beautiful imagery though).

*HUGS* Talk to me if you need to. I can't bear the thought of you being upset too.

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[galwithglasses.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the hugs. It helps and hopefully things will get better in the next couple of weeks. Even though I couldn't handle watching, I still looked at the caps. I'm addicted, don't you know. It was a beautifully shot episode. It was another first time director and he pulled it off pretty well. I still have the last episode to recap and I think I'll be able to work up something for that over the hiatus. Then I think I'll have to set it aside for a couple weeks. I have some non-SPN stuff to work on and maybe this is the push I've needed. I'm trying to put a positive spin on it but bah, humbug. I got a Tumblr too even though I haven't the first clue what that's all about. It's pretty and shiny though.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

The episode was indeed beautifully shot. I was thinking about doing a small visual picspam just to swoon over some of the images. Might be the bit of therapy I need. ;)

I think the directing was very good. The pacing was good and the framing was great. I really wish it had been an earlier episode, I am sure I wouldn't feel so bad about it. There were some interesting moment in there for sure. ;)

Ha! And I've had a tumblr for a while I still can't figure it out. I think because I approach it like LJ I get all muddled. I'm thinking I might teach myself how to make gifs or something so I can do more over there.

(umm....what did I say about taking a break from it all...?/o\)

xox

[growyourwings.livejournal.com]

*butts in*

I'd love to know your Tumblr handle. Mine is the same as here.

I've been wallowing in the pretty over there as a way to cheer myself up. See my http://growyourwings.livejournal.com/tag/via%20tumblr posts. :) I got tired of being gloomy. Helped a bit.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

I've been loving your Tumblr on LJ posts. I just don't get over there and when I do there's so much stuff I really don't want to see. (I did once consider opening a comm on LJ to share fav tumblr pics - that way it would only contain, say spn stuff). So thanks...I've been loving them.

Aaanyway. My tumblr is

http://www.tumblr.com/blog/ash48

xox

(My aim this holidays is learn how to make gifs. Or at least pretty pics to post there...)

[galwithglasses.livejournal.com]

It's kind of like nicotine...not easy to quit. I'll quit tomorrow.....uh huh. After I comment on that journal and read one more fic. Where's the SPN gum and patch when you need 'em?

[ash48.livejournal.com]

GOD YES! I was like....right. I'm not going to even go on LJ today. I am going to stay away. Just after I answer the comments. And check my flist...and, er, play with this vid I'm making for therapy. So yeah...that plan went out the window.

I WANT AN SPN PATCH!! (ha...man, I wish I had graphic skills. I would so create an SPN patch and gum. For addicts who need to kick the habit.;)