8.09 reaction.

[ash48]

I hated that beyond words.

I am literally sobbing as I type because this actually feels like the end.

What happened to my beautiful, bromancy, interesting, scary, intriguing show? My show that had "something up its sleeve", my show that only ever had brothers at odds with each other FOR A REAL REASON! My show that had brothers who loved each other. My show that knew it's history. My show that WAS NEVER a soap opera. My show.... *sobs*

My heart is breaking so much and it fucking hurts.

I trust that I missed something. To be honest I don't even have the energy to rant. I am so disappointed and hurt. The season cliffhanger is Amelia walking back into Sam's life... just. No words.

I have never witnessed so much distrust, disloyalty, dis-LOVE between the brothers....EVER. Even when they were fighting at the end of S4 there was at least passion. This was just...nothing. All those things without any reason. They were hardly even on the screen together. I think I even detected real hate between them. And if that's supposed to make me tune in to see how they resolve it?...well...yeah. Not so much.

The show has changed. I suppose it had to. So many of you already saw it. I glimpsed it and clawed myself back. But this is what the show has become and that saddens me so, so much.

I know I shouldn't post. I know you want positive stuff. But in one episode it cemented everything I feared this season would turn into. A boring soap opera.

(I will say that it was beautifully filmed. And if it was a soap opera then I am sure it was beautifully written).

Comments

[locknkey.livejournal.com]

well, bb - you've got everyone talking. :)

::giant smishes & pets::

I have to say I found the ep. pretty bland.

@Sam - I still think there's something fishy about Amelia(in ep. one they show him sneaking out in the dark. In this ep. they show him leaving her in broad daylight and telling her up front) While I might believe other canon has been swept aside that's only 8 eps. back. Even if Sam just couldn't put himself together to look for Dean I'd be okay with that, but I don't think that's what they've shown us. I feel the viewer is much more upset over Dean's behavior than Sam is. He even had grudging admiration for Dean in his voice when he said, "well played." One upping the other is certainly their norm. Yeah he's angry, but I don't think he's destroyed over it. (I was a little weirded out that Sam left Martin basically as fodder when he ran away. That seemed OOC to me.)

@Dean. I don't think Dean using Amelia was OOC at all or makes him a bad person. I think Dean has a long history of pushing Sam at what he thinks Sam wants (college, various girls, etc.) while still wanting to have Sam right next to him. The fact that he switched up that cell a while back speaks volumes to me about his intentions. he knows Sam hasn't moved past Amelia. As much as he is jealous, he also wants Sam to have what he wants. That's always been Dean's underlying struggle. I think this case just gave Dean a convenient excuse to do it and it worked well with keeping Sam and Benny apart. (He owes Benny and it kept Sam safe.) After Dean's descriptions of purgatory, we know that Benny must be one tough S.O.B. (Sidenote: this makes Dean as culpable for Martin's death as Sam; he knew Sam would run away. People in the Winchester's lives tend to become fodder for their issues.)

They've both exchanged harsh words. I don't think either of them is right, but if they didn't truly love each other, the others perceived betrayal wouldn't seem so painful. Lashing out isn't pretty. In the past they've done it with fists. I think now it's with words which the viewer can feel more deeply than blows. Many of have never been hit, but we've all been verbally pummeled before.

Truthfully I've liked he season overall and I don't expect every ep. to be a winner. I really see S & D acting like a long term couple. S.1 & 2 they were fresh and new and everything reflected that. What they have now is hard won, tinted by tragedy and familiar. To me they seem in sync and supportive even with the deep-seated jealousy and the misunderstandings, but it doesn't feel like either one of them are going to leave the other or really want the replacement person they've had for the last year.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thanks hun. <33

@Sam..I'd love to think that there's something fishy going on with Amelia (or the Sam/Amelia backs troy) but I've lost so much faith in that that I think I'm now trying not to think anything. I sincerely hope him leaving in the dark is actually significant and not just a continuity problem. But i he'd left in the dark just because he didn't want to say the final farewell then, yeah...it's just be another major disappointment.

And I KNOW! When Sam left Martin I couldn't believe it. (Just another thing to had to his impressive list of things he's fucked up. Martin's dead and I am sure Sam will blame himself. Well, the sam we used to know would. This one will probably shrug it off.

@Dean, Oh wow - I never considered that. None of Dean's actions spoke to me of him actually pushing Sam toward Amelia. I got the impression that Dean took the phone so he could use it exactly the way he had. To trick Sam. But I can see that that he might have kept it to maybe one day bring the two of them back together (man, I just wish they'd be obvious about this stuff...). And yeah - Dean is just as responsible for Martin's death. So sad....

And yeah - I get all that other stuff. And I like it. I know that show has to do new things (I'm usually the one telling other people that) but these issues just seem so petty to me after everything they have been through. And my issues with the episode aren't just about the state of their relationship. I mean, that's tough but out of everything that's still the most interesting thing going on for me. It's everything else....long scenes that hold no interest for me, a weak back story for Sam, corny dialogue... But I get that that is purely personal.

Thanks so much for sharing your thoughts. they will definitely give me something to think about.
xox

[locknkey.livejournal.com]

*snuggles*

All this being said, I'd probably give up a body part to have a season where the conflict came from outside forcing the two of them to go up against it together. *sigh*

[ash48.livejournal.com]

*dreams* going up against an outside force together. That would be so nice...

xox