8.09 reaction.

[ash48]

I hated that beyond words.

I am literally sobbing as I type because this actually feels like the end.

What happened to my beautiful, bromancy, interesting, scary, intriguing show? My show that had "something up its sleeve", my show that only ever had brothers at odds with each other FOR A REAL REASON! My show that had brothers who loved each other. My show that knew it's history. My show that WAS NEVER a soap opera. My show.... *sobs*

My heart is breaking so much and it fucking hurts.

I trust that I missed something. To be honest I don't even have the energy to rant. I am so disappointed and hurt. The season cliffhanger is Amelia walking back into Sam's life... just. No words.

I have never witnessed so much distrust, disloyalty, dis-LOVE between the brothers....EVER. Even when they were fighting at the end of S4 there was at least passion. This was just...nothing. All those things without any reason. They were hardly even on the screen together. I think I even detected real hate between them. And if that's supposed to make me tune in to see how they resolve it?...well...yeah. Not so much.

The show has changed. I suppose it had to. So many of you already saw it. I glimpsed it and clawed myself back. But this is what the show has become and that saddens me so, so much.

I know I shouldn't post. I know you want positive stuff. But in one episode it cemented everything I feared this season would turn into. A boring soap opera.

(I will say that it was beautifully filmed. And if it was a soap opera then I am sure it was beautifully written).

Comments

[harrigan.livejournal.com]

And I do believe that we can look forward to some amazing episodes going forward too. I do! My problem with this episode has been primarily 2-fold. (I know they aren't the same reasons as for your upset - and your reasons are entirely valid. But it helps me to talk it out a little, if you don't mind.)

1. I was already in a kinda fragile state this week, completely unrelated to the show. (I found myself returning 3 library books unfinished because they were too intense and depressing, and my mindset really couldn't handle that right now. And then this week's episode? Ouch!!)

2. I try not to have expectations about episodes. Not to be too aware of spoilers. Not to try to envision where they are going. (Not everyone's style but it mostly works for me.) If this had been a regular early season 8 episode, or I'd first watched it in a marathon watching session with several other eps later (maybe debbiel66's plan?), it wouldn't have been nearly so painful. But I couldn't help having higher/different expectations for the pre-hiatus 'cliffhanger', despite my best intentions, and this - failed me. Deeply. But! That doesn't mean the second half of season 8 might not be deeply satisfying. I have to believe Sam and Dean will have a sorely needed heart-to-heart soon and there are a lot of episodes to come after that.

What I need to do is limit my fannish activities to positive ones for now. Avoid the side-taking wank, and maybe wallow in some curtain!fic? And J2AU of course! I hope you find whatever works for you to provide some solace (crying jag? ranting on your LJ? Turning to Teen Wolf or 1D? - hee!) until the show re-earns your trust. I believe it will. Until then, protect your heart in whatever way you think best. {{{hugs}}}

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thank you sweetie.

I agree that seeing this ep earlier on would have had me reacting very differently.

I am currently trying to plan what to do. I considered just taking a major break from LJ (but then I know I'd miss it too much). I think once I've answered all these comments that will be the end of the discussions for me. Lamenting is not going to help. I really do need to take a big break.

I want to get my act together for spn_littlebro (I have tried to read some stories but I keep running out of time - due to Show - but I will get on top of that soon) and maybe bury myself in creating a motel post or something.

At the moment I'm thinking I might try Deb's plan. As much as I hate being spoiled I am going to read selected ep reactions once an episode has aired and decide whether to watch it or not. And try no to have any expectations or hope or even speculate.

Hee...TW or 1D...what? You wanna kill me?!! lol.

*hugs* I'm sorry to hear RL is getting you down.

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