ash48 | 9.22 reaction (And I mean reaction

Please don't enter if you don't want to read ranting, swearing, sarcasm, wank inducing comments and general lack of positiveness.

I'm not even kidding guys. It's probably due to the bad mood that I have been carrying all day and the lack of wine I drank during the episode. It's not even that I totally hated it. It's just that realisation (like the one I had in the middle of last season) that it's not going anywhere near where I was hoping it would. I'm mostly just venting (but please heed the warning. I am more than happy to hear your positive comments though - if fact, I probably need some cheering up).

I think I've figured out the one thing I really want from this show...

For it to make fucking sense!

That's it. That's all I really want. I mean sure, I'd love the brothers to be on the same page, I've like to actually recognise the characters again, I'd like there to be less boring angel shit, I'd like to actually care about what's going on but MOST OF ALL...make fucking sense!

I've been patient. I've been veeery patient because I truly believed this was all going somewhere (shut up

tebtosca! ;D). I actually thought the issues they raised in the beginning of the season were actually going to MEAN SOMETHING. And I know many of you told me it wasn't going to happen, but I held on. I actually thought there was potential to dig deep into this relationship and GO SOMEWHERE with it.

But no. It's not about that. In fact. It's not about anything. It's not about Dean realising the lines he crossed when allowing an angel to possess Sam. It's not about Sam trying to understand Dean and his motivations and reasons for making the decisions he does. It's not about issues of trust or good intentions or fighting the good fight. Shit, is it even about family any more? Oh that's right. It's apparently about Team Free Will and therefore it's full of warm fuzzies and everything is going to be fine because TFW rides again! (Which would be wonderful if I actually gave a shit about that).

*deep breath*

I would like to try and step back and see what this episode was actually trying to do but because in the end it essentially did nothing I am at a complete and utter loss.

We saw Dean getting darker and a couple of those moments were hot as hell (and I wish that at least saved the ep for me) but now we just have an even dickier Dean than we've had all season. One minute he's a lying liar who lies and then he's a threatening scary mother fucker. I get why he's that way and maybe there is something interesting here. Maybe, just MAYBE his "It's a dictatorship" is tapping into a part of Dean he's always wanted in the relationship. In S5 Dean had to realise that Sam was his own person and as this is a rehash of that, that comment could actually be important to the story line (heaven forbid there might actually be something important here). Ha! And I like the one-upmanship of Dean's "we're not even partners". Go Dean! (listens for fandom hating on Dean...*crickets*..on that's right...). I love how Carver is showing Sam and Dean's maturing relationship. So fucking mature.

I actually don't have an issue with MoC!Dean because he's part of the storyline and now myth arc (and Jensen is embodying this new version of Dean) and that's what happens. He's dark, he's cut off from humanity, he's driven and uncaring and all that stuff - and that actually would be doubly amazing if we didn't have all that stuff that the first half of the season opened up (this is what he did last season didn't he? Second half completely different and unconnected to the first half? Why am I even surprised).

But why does have Dean being all dark and scary mean that Sam has to be an ineffectual, frowny face, "oh, I think that nasty Mark might be changing you Dean" type of character now? Yes, yes I know, I know it's all about drawing out the tension blah blah, but seriously? In S4 Dean knew when Sam was off the reservation and DID SOMETHING ABOUT IT! Sam is ...what? What the fuck is he doing? Oh, that's right. Nothing. Just taking orders because that's what he always does and he can just wander off with Cas because clearly leaving Dean to do what ever Dean is going do is fine with him.

Fuck that shit.

I'm sure Cas was interesting to those who are interested. I'm not, so I really don't care what was gong on for him. Though I did like the Sam and Cas scenes just because it was Sam and Cas. Even though it amounted to absolutely nothing. Not even a decent chat about what was going on with Dean. Cas knows about the Mark but didn't say anything to Sam. Because that always works. (I am sure in any other episode I would be squeeing about those scenes. There were some nice moments, but I'm so annoyed that I'll have to come back to them later).

I have nothing to say about Metatron because of ALL the big bads that have EVER EXISTED he is the most boring and most annoying. In fact, the only thing I will feel when he dies is relief so we don't have to see him any more. What even is his character? He's supposedly "writing" all this but what does that actually mean? It's doing my head in and in fact I don't care. So that's easy.

And then there's Gadreel. Is he dead? I kind of hope so because that will be one less angel to have to worry about seeing again. Though if he is dead what was the point of him? Other than to give Jared something interesting to work with at the beginning of the season. If he's not - well, why not? What's he going to be able to so in one episode? Side with Sam (who clearly was ready to hug him and welcome him onto the fold because he actually liked being possessed and his body used to kill someone) and help foil Metatron? Maybe Gad and Sam will be soul buds. They share soooo much now. All of Sam's memories for starters.

The one thing I really did like was Dean attacking Gadreel at the end. Now THAT MADE SENSE! I was worried that they were going to greet him with open arms but thankfully Dean remembered what he did to Kevin and Sam and got his revenge (at least the ep ended on a kind of exciting note).

How did Gad get in I wonder? Oh that's right. They left the front door open.

Don't even get me started on Tessa. It has taken me AGES. And I mean 9 YEARS to FINALLY be pissed off with them bringing back characters just to kill them. It made me nostalgic though for that wonderful episode she first appeared in "In My Time of Dying". Oh and... I thought she was a reaper? So are they actually angels? Did I miss something there? And I thought she could only be seen when someone was dying. LOL!CANON!

But, the turning point for me in this episode (because actually, I was mostly enjoying it up until this point) was when Metraton was addressing them all on the computer. That was when I lost my shit (and fell asleep).

Because it made me realise how damn STUPID angels are. What the fuck?! They change loyalties because they suddenly BELIEVE the angel that kicked them out of Heaven in the first place? The one that tells them he'll be their God?! Can they not think for themselves ?! (reminds be of humans actually). If angels this season weren't boring enough already (oh Zach how I miss youuuuu!!) they then make them STUPID on top of it. I hope they all go back to heaven and the gates or moving portals are closed FOREVER!

And then he asks Cas to kill Dean - because we know that's going to happen. My goodness! I was biting my nails with tension! Would Dean die?! Oh noes! Oh *phew* Cas chose Dean. I had no idea that would happen.

Oh and yes. Sam got to be all worried again (and now I am finally understanding why Dean!gals were getting pissed off with sidelined Dean when Sam had the story. I UNDERSTAND NOW!). Why the hell both characters can't actually have, you know, characters when something is happening to the other I don't know.

I'm sorry. Most of that was just getting it off my chest. I felt like this in the middle of last season and now I'm feeling it in the penultimate episode of the season. What I hate more than anything is I know...I KNOW...I am going to massively disappointed with the finale. I can't think of a single thing that will salvage this season for me. Maybe Sam will be allowed to grow some balls (but if he does fandom will hate him all over again. Becauyse yes, I've already seen someone say that at least Dean is being nicer to Sam than Sam was to him when Sam was pissed off. I JUST CAN'T WITH THAT SHIT). I'm BEYOND thinking we'll even get a SMIDGEON of his pov. Possession? What fucking possession?! Oh that's right. He's fine with that because he's so used to his body being used and abused by something else. He's fine with Dean making choices for him. ARGHHHHHHHHH

Actually. I know what will salvage this for me. If Dean kills Sam and then kills himself and they put themselves and everyone else out of their misery. (Well, mine anyway). And then Cas can rule the world and have his own SPN spin off.

(As much as I would love to say "I QUIT YOU", I know that I can't. I suppose there's this 1% of hope left that next week will actually give us some powerful Sam and Dean. Something that ties in at least a little bit of the potential of the opening episode. I will try and remain positive going into that episode).