5.17 ep reaction
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ash48It's damn annoying when you finish watching the show, plan to share the chat on LJ and LJ decides to have some time out.. Sheesh... Anytime but Friday nights (or Thursday night elsewhere), please LJ!
Anyway. My insta-reaction would have been... OH DEAN! :(
Actually my initial response was a feeling of numbness. I just sat staring at the screen thinking - omg, he's going to say yes. He wasn't going to do that. He CAN'T do that. I remembered now why I hated it when we found out that Sam was Lu's vessel. These boys are going to end up fighting each other. Really fight. Up until now I thought that might be avoided. I mean, I know that that's the whole point but..*sigh*.... as cool as it would be to see that, fighting boys breaks my heart. It means they both say yes and I'm not really sure I want to see that either. But I better snap out of it because I'm pretty sure that's what's going to happen
There were some amazingly cool moments in this episode. The big hunter fight being one of them and even though Sam and Dean are still at massive odds with each other they still work so friggin' well together. And they still care if the other one is hurt. "Are you all right?" being asked a couple of times. (I live for little moments like that. Little hints....)
But Dean. I take my hat off to Jensen because the slow disintegration of the "Dean" we know and love has been amazing. There's very little left of the Dean we started out with. His utter emptiness is apparent in every scene. Whether the scene is about that or not. His body language and eyes just show complete and utter weariness the whole time. He finds joy nowhere. He's made it believable that Dean could say yes. He's taken his character to the brink.
I know a lot have thought the final scene was "tacked on" and didn't ring true and I admit to being slightly taken aback also, but it made so much sense in regards to Dean's character. Looking out for other people. Acknowledging the things he's missed out on. He seemed to be making his peace. Getting his affairs in order before (ONCE AGAIN YOU IDIOT!) sacrificing himself for (what he believes to be) the good of others. (Because that always works out so well DAMN WELL DEAN!) And yes, I want to SHAKE him. LEARN FROM THE PAST DEAN!... But, it wouldn't be Show if it didn't make me want to do that...
And Sam. I'm going to stand by my conviction that Sam will (somehow!) save Dean from saying yes. (though I'm also in 2 minds about whether them saying yes is going to be a completely bad thing..) Sam was so strong in this episode. Scared yes - because he knows how broken and empty Dean is. But he's keeping up the good fight. He seems to still have the "we will go down fighting" attitude that Dean once had. (AND WHAT HAPPENED TO TEAM FREE WILL DEAN??!!)
And that shot of Dean driving away and leaving Sam is utter despair? No words... just a deep ache in my heart. Amazing shot. (Again Dean! Leaving Sam is NOT A GOOD IDEA!!! Remember what happened last time??!!) I know I should stop shouting at Dean, but really....
And I'm getting on board with Cas more and more. I think the slow deterioration of his character has been interesting as well. His becoming less angel and more human has been fascinating to watch. Not only damn funny at times, but heartbreaking also. I also love how it makes future!Cas more believable. I can totally believe that if left on this path he would end up as the Cas we saw in The End.
Though Future!Dean was a Dean that didn't say yes. So maybe by saying yes now that will change the course of events so the future doesn't happen (assuming that future was "real" and not fabricated by Zac)... *ouch* my brain hurts now. That's too thinky for me at the moment.
Though speaking of Zac, surely Dean can't give into him? He is such a (deliciously) despicable character that surely Dean can't... :(((((
The only thing I really had trouble believing was how far that woman (Jane, I think) would go to get to "paradise". I mean I get it. But I hate to think that our natural instinct to value life could be stripped away so quickly and so brutally.
Anyway. I didn't come off that episode thinking "OMG! I loved it" - but having had time to digest it and think about it, it was a good solid episode, which will no doubt generate some good thinky thoughts. :)
The question is. How much more heartbreak can I take?! We still have 5 episodes to go. I suspect I'm going to have to take a lot more yet .....
Anyway. My insta-reaction would have been... OH DEAN! :(
Actually my initial response was a feeling of numbness. I just sat staring at the screen thinking - omg, he's going to say yes. He wasn't going to do that. He CAN'T do that. I remembered now why I hated it when we found out that Sam was Lu's vessel. These boys are going to end up fighting each other. Really fight. Up until now I thought that might be avoided. I mean, I know that that's the whole point but..*sigh*.... as cool as it would be to see that, fighting boys breaks my heart. It means they both say yes and I'm not really sure I want to see that either. But I better snap out of it because I'm pretty sure that's what's going to happen
There were some amazingly cool moments in this episode. The big hunter fight being one of them and even though Sam and Dean are still at massive odds with each other they still work so friggin' well together. And they still care if the other one is hurt. "Are you all right?" being asked a couple of times. (I live for little moments like that. Little hints....)
But Dean. I take my hat off to Jensen because the slow disintegration of the "Dean" we know and love has been amazing. There's very little left of the Dean we started out with. His utter emptiness is apparent in every scene. Whether the scene is about that or not. His body language and eyes just show complete and utter weariness the whole time. He finds joy nowhere. He's made it believable that Dean could say yes. He's taken his character to the brink.
I know a lot have thought the final scene was "tacked on" and didn't ring true and I admit to being slightly taken aback also, but it made so much sense in regards to Dean's character. Looking out for other people. Acknowledging the things he's missed out on. He seemed to be making his peace. Getting his affairs in order before (ONCE AGAIN YOU IDIOT!) sacrificing himself for (what he believes to be) the good of others. (Because that always works out so well DAMN WELL DEAN!) And yes, I want to SHAKE him. LEARN FROM THE PAST DEAN!... But, it wouldn't be Show if it didn't make me want to do that...
And Sam. I'm going to stand by my conviction that Sam will (somehow!) save Dean from saying yes. (though I'm also in 2 minds about whether them saying yes is going to be a completely bad thing..) Sam was so strong in this episode. Scared yes - because he knows how broken and empty Dean is. But he's keeping up the good fight. He seems to still have the "we will go down fighting" attitude that Dean once had. (AND WHAT HAPPENED TO TEAM FREE WILL DEAN??!!)
And that shot of Dean driving away and leaving Sam is utter despair? No words... just a deep ache in my heart. Amazing shot. (Again Dean! Leaving Sam is NOT A GOOD IDEA!!! Remember what happened last time??!!) I know I should stop shouting at Dean, but really....
And I'm getting on board with Cas more and more. I think the slow deterioration of his character has been interesting as well. His becoming less angel and more human has been fascinating to watch. Not only damn funny at times, but heartbreaking also. I also love how it makes future!Cas more believable. I can totally believe that if left on this path he would end up as the Cas we saw in The End.
Though Future!Dean was a Dean that didn't say yes. So maybe by saying yes now that will change the course of events so the future doesn't happen (assuming that future was "real" and not fabricated by Zac)... *ouch* my brain hurts now. That's too thinky for me at the moment.
Though speaking of Zac, surely Dean can't give into him? He is such a (deliciously) despicable character that surely Dean can't... :(((((
The only thing I really had trouble believing was how far that woman (Jane, I think) would go to get to "paradise". I mean I get it. But I hate to think that our natural instinct to value life could be stripped away so quickly and so brutally.
Anyway. I didn't come off that episode thinking "OMG! I loved it" - but having had time to digest it and think about it, it was a good solid episode, which will no doubt generate some good thinky thoughts. :)
The question is. How much more heartbreak can I take?! We still have 5 episodes to go. I suspect I'm going to have to take a lot more yet .....
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Date: 2010-04-10 07:51 am (UTC)True. And I've said it above in a couple of comments that I saw that whole scene more as a way for us (the audience) to know what's going on in Dean's mind before he goes off to make the deal. He demonstrated his commitment to loved ones. He wasn't there to rekindle the flame. Just to reassure them that everything will be ok.
Man, that scene is mutli-layered. The more I ponder it the more I like how powerful it was. And would he have stayed if he had more than a year to live...? I don't think so. I think Dean might be a bit of a martyr in that respect. He has a job to do. And settling down with a family really doesn't feature in that. Sam's his family (well, damnit! It was!)
last week when Dean saw that Sam's "greatest hits" as he called them didn't include him,
Oh yes indeed. That was a huge catalyst for him making this decision. I think it was really what last weeks episode was all about. Providing this motivation. But equally, I think it also gave Sam the insight he needs to help Dean through this (save him maybe...). I would love to think that this is how it will play out. I'd love Sam to find his redemption in finally showing Dean how worthy he is. How much Sam loves and indeed needs him.
Oh show! How can you make me think so much!
(And it will be very interesting to see what both the J's do after this...)
Sorry to blab. But, hey. Thanks so much for dropping in and sharing your thoughts. (This is my most favourite thing to do..well, second to vidding that is. *g*)
xx