Insta reaction...

[ash48]

Oh fuck. I'm crying. I hate this. Why am I crying over a damn TV show?!

I love my show so much. And I hate my show as well.

Oh God that hurt. I feel empty and gut wrenchingly sad. My show was supposed to make everything all right. Instead I am sobbing like a baby. Honestly. That was the ultimate in Supernatural angst. I always held out that everything would be all right. I really, really believed that. I even told girlmostlikely that every will. be. all. right..... But... *sob*. She knew.

I am a mess of thoughts right now.

Did I like Chuck being the voice of Kripke? Yes and no. Yes, the narrator style added an inevitability and made sense of the books (yay). And added to the oh god fucking sadness of it all. The shout out to the fans? Oh man... I don't know. So weird. Fun (as in Kripke keeps acknowledging us...) but weird. I think I would rather have had a kick ass Sam and Dean save the world ending rather than a Sam dies and Dean finds comfort with Lisa...but I also admire the stance it took. And I realise there was so much more going on than thay... but I can't think beyond my heart ache at the moment.

What's that saying?... Not with a bang, but with a whimper... :(

It came down them being human yeah? At the end of the day our boys are human and ....*sigh* not super heros.

And that's where the love comes in. That was a brave ending. A beautiful ending. So right for their destinies. So sad in reality. Would this have been the ending if there wasn't a season 6?!! IT BETTER NOT HAVE BEEN!!!

Ok. I've gone past insta reaction and gone into thinking about it too much. So I better stop. I haven't read a single reaction post yet. I have no idea what you all are thinking. Alls I know is I need a friggin' HUG!!

Side note: Jared was awesome. The way they shot the mirror scene was wonderful and was my favourite scene.
Jensen was awesome too. So broken. Dean being broken though is so hard to watch though - especially as it has been a constant lately.

I thought season 5 was going to be about healing. Hopefully (dear god!) season 6 be that.

So. In short. I loved it and hated it at the same time. (I have to clean the mascara off my face now).

*hugs* 'cause god damn you Kripke!

Comments

[mara-snh.livejournal.com]

I re-watched Swan Song a while ago and it just tore my heart out. When poor beaten Dean keeps crying out to Sam that he wont leave him, oh God, I was choking back tears. Then the scene of Dean kneeling in the dirt before Cas reappears had me bawling -- quietly, though, so as not to wake the husband asleep down the hall. Seeing the lamppost light go out (not flicker, just go out) and Sam's enigmatic face, oh wow. I don't know what we're in for.

Have you read the wonderful LJ meta on the semiotics of color in Serge Ladouceur's lighting design throughout the series? I wish I could remember the writer's username. Anyway, she ascribes potent value to the use of red, blue, and green (which I note are the primary colors of light) as visual cues. Red is for the presence of evil, or temptation. The lamppost light was a dirty sort of red. Then there was no color at all. Fascinating.

Came back to add: Here's the first of two or three really wonderful posts about the use of color in Supernatural. http://zimshan.livejournal.com/205606.html If you go to more recent pages on her LJ and poke around, you'll find more on the subject. I'm going right now to read what she has to say about lighting in Swan Song.

[ancastar.livejournal.com]

I just finished rewatching from the cemetery to the end (I'd just downloaded the files onto my hard drive for vidding), and cried like an idiot. That's the fourth time I've seen those scenes. Their impact doesn't seem to be fading.

And yes, Dean going to be with Sam so he won't be alone when he dies (and of course it nearly killing Dean in the process). And the looks they share when the hole has opened up and Sam is about to jump in. There's a moment where Sam looks at Dean and nods, quick and small. That guts me. The whole thing does. I love these characters so much.

And yes--I know the meta you're talking about. That poster sees things I'd never see on my own. Brilliant.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Oh you found zimshan's post. Awesome isn't it?! I've been absolutely loving her commentary.

Oh and Dean saying to Sam that he won't leave him... Whaaaaaaaaaa! Just so, so painful and heartbreaking and beautiful.
OH BOYS! <333