Insta reaction...

[ash48]

Oh fuck. I'm crying. I hate this. Why am I crying over a damn TV show?!

I love my show so much. And I hate my show as well.

Oh God that hurt. I feel empty and gut wrenchingly sad. My show was supposed to make everything all right. Instead I am sobbing like a baby. Honestly. That was the ultimate in Supernatural angst. I always held out that everything would be all right. I really, really believed that. I even told girlmostlikely that every will. be. all. right..... But... *sob*. She knew.

I am a mess of thoughts right now.

Did I like Chuck being the voice of Kripke? Yes and no. Yes, the narrator style added an inevitability and made sense of the books (yay). And added to the oh god fucking sadness of it all. The shout out to the fans? Oh man... I don't know. So weird. Fun (as in Kripke keeps acknowledging us...) but weird. I think I would rather have had a kick ass Sam and Dean save the world ending rather than a Sam dies and Dean finds comfort with Lisa...but I also admire the stance it took. And I realise there was so much more going on than thay... but I can't think beyond my heart ache at the moment.

What's that saying?... Not with a bang, but with a whimper... :(

It came down them being human yeah? At the end of the day our boys are human and ....*sigh* not super heros.

And that's where the love comes in. That was a brave ending. A beautiful ending. So right for their destinies. So sad in reality. Would this have been the ending if there wasn't a season 6?!! IT BETTER NOT HAVE BEEN!!!

Ok. I've gone past insta reaction and gone into thinking about it too much. So I better stop. I haven't read a single reaction post yet. I have no idea what you all are thinking. Alls I know is I need a friggin' HUG!!

Side note: Jared was awesome. The way they shot the mirror scene was wonderful and was my favourite scene.
Jensen was awesome too. So broken. Dean being broken though is so hard to watch though - especially as it has been a constant lately.

I thought season 5 was going to be about healing. Hopefully (dear god!) season 6 be that.

So. In short. I loved it and hated it at the same time. (I have to clean the mascara off my face now).

*hugs* 'cause god damn you Kripke!

Comments

[ruby-jelly.livejournal.com]

With you all the way! **hugs** and a tissue!

I was glad to be alone, my reactions were a little excessive considering I was watching tv! I even yelled "no" in the last little bit!

I think it would have ended this way, if the series had been finishing, ( except for the "leaning by the lamp-post in case a certain (Impala) passes by" part.

Kripke likes to rip out the heart, and Sam sacrificing his life is so appropriate, heroic.

I'm quite beside myself tonight!

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Oh I know. I'm actually glad I didn't watch it with anyone. I was actually full on sobbing. Sobbing I tell you (though having a fellow fangirl to hug wouldn't have been awesome... I needed it. Still do!)

I sincerely hope he never planned to end it like this. If he was going to kill one boy he HAD to kill them both and they HAD to go out in a blaze of glory.

Sure, Sam was wonderfully heroic and so so Sam ... but Dean?... noes... He just. No.. Sam and Dean forever I say! <3

*huggles hun* (Hee! I love that I know who you are..:) ) and I saw that you worked out your pic! :D

[el1ie.livejournal.com]

I think I cried all the way through...I'm still blubbering on and off just THINKING about it.

Seems everyone got some sort of reward except Sam and Dean. I'm sorry, but no way do I see Dean's ready made little family as anything other than a disaster in the making and he's doing it for Sam and that just breaks me every time I think about it.

So to me - for now - Chuck was not god and Sam is Sam not Lucifer - if god can bring Castiel back he can bring Sam back or get that rehymenated Castiel to get him out of the cage. Sam needs to go knock on that door and claim his reward. And Dean saved Sam so Sam could save the world so Dean needs properly rewarding with Sam. **nods**

I'd still be crying over it though.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Seems everyone got some sort of reward except Sam and Dean

OMG. And isn't this just the poetry of it all? That's way I kinda loved it and hated it at the same time. It just seemed to sum up Sam and Dean right there. But really? No. It was so painful. These boys NEED pay off.

But I get that as there's a season 6, they need to take it somewhere else. I'm kinda ok with that.

But... I'm confused about "Sam's" appearance at the end. I mean. That wasn't Sam was it? *eek* As in it looked like Lucifer Sam? Or.... aack! Who was it?

*huggles* I have so much planned for the hiatus. I can now vid this song that I really want to vid... :D

xx

[callme-k.livejournal.com]

Damn, the tears are brimming again:(

The only way I could have ever reconciled that ending (were there not to be a S6) would be months of therapy. I agree, 'twas a "brave and beautiful" ending, but OMG! Sam's dead?! I can't even comprehend those two words.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

How can poor Sammy be dead? Again!? I just. How can that do that to us?? Oh. Yes. It's Supernatural. Of course they can. :(((

Vidding therapy. That's all there is really... :)

xx

[greyowl88.livejournal.com]

*comes back to life to give you that needed hug* (I died watching this epi.)

It's so perfect, so good and so horrible at the same time! I really have to watch it again but I don't want to face the feelings I had watching it. Kripke twistet my heart and brain. And instead of searching for any more coherent words:

*HUGS* *CLINGS*

[ash48.livejournal.com]

OMG! I totes died. How can my show hurt me and love me so much at the same time.

It was kinda like poetry in motion.

*HUGS and CLINGS and CRIES and DIES* all at the same time!!

(I so have my vidding funk happening. I can think of a few songs I want to vid now! )

did you get the song I sent you? I ask only because my email has been playing up

[turquoisetumult.livejournal.com]

I still have faith that the show will end, for good, with Sam and Dean, riding enough into a sunset full of ghosts and demons, taking them down, one fight at a time.

But, yeah, I cried too while rewatching the Impala history scenes just now. Don't be embarrassed - you're not the only one!

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Hee! I think if anyone was around I would have been embarrassed. (of course my husband just shook his head and said "you know it's just a TV show". What does he know!)

Yeah - I either need them going down together or riding off into the sunset. Not this divided stuff.

Kripke is indeed a bastard for not giving us either... damn him!

*huggles*

[ancastar.livejournal.com]

I absolutely adored it. And while I cried buckets, it ended on a hopeful note. Read this, babe. You'll feel better:

http://bree-black.livejournal.com/16060.html

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thanks honey. :) I want to be positive about it, I do, but the pain of them (once again) being separated just kills.

I enjoyed the post though and there really were some amazing things going on in the episode.

I suppose I just wish Kripke could be kind to us for once. Hee! But I know that's not in his job description.

Oh well. Time for the fans to make it all better between now and next season.. :) And as you say above there will be a chance now for more hugging!! (well, there better!)

[saturday-v.livejournal.com]

*hugs*
I think Kripke likes to watch us break, but at least he tries to put us back together after.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

He does indeed. And he does it soooo well. Bastard! :)

We have to wait all this time now to be "put back together"... Is it season 6 yet?

[zimshan.livejournal.com]

Oh God that hurt. I feel empty and gut wrenchingly sad. My show was supposed to make everything all right. Instead I am sobbing like a baby. Honestly. That was the ultimate in Supernatural angst. I always held out that everything would be all right. I really, really believed that. I even told [info]girlmostlikely that every will. be. all. right..... But... *sob*. She knew.
RIGHT??? musesfool most recent post just went into the details of why this ending is just so HORRIFYINGLY horrific, and yea. I'm just left with, this was supposed to be the year to fix things! And makes me kinda resent the S6 renewal. Even if now we're TOTALLY gonna need it.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

I'm just left with, this was supposed to be the year to fix things!

Right! It's so gut wrenchingly sad that we had the moments of nearly fixing things only to be then ripped apart again. And so brutally. Of course it leaves the door open for the beginning of next season... but *sigh*... meanwhile Dean has to live without Sam and that... well, that just isn't right. :(

*hugs*

[stormcloude]

It came down them being human yeah? At the end of the day our boys are human and ....*sigh* not super heros.



That's a very good point. The whole Castiel resets everything except Sam takes away a little of that impact though, I thought.

And one of the set workers tweeted that the last few episodes were rewritten after the renewal news came, so I think the ending we would have gotten if this had been the series end would have been different. It's a little sad that I probably would have prefered the "roads not taken" both for season three and this season.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Yes. I'd loved to know how it had been originally written. And I get that they needed to have something to go into Season 6 with, but I honestly thought we'd have a conclusion that was happier than that one. But I keep reminding myself that this is Supernatural after all. :( Superemotional more like. :)

xx

[dotfic.livejournal.com]

Yes, with the hate and the love. And I have some other issues with it, stuff that didn't work for me, even though a whole lot did.

But the hurt is...unbelievable. I needed both of them to go down, or neither but not one going down to leave the other to grieve. I can't even THINK about it it's so sad. Even with Sam being there at the last second at the end I still have to know that Dean is going through that loss and my thoughts on all this are too complicated so I'll stop there. D:

[ash48.livejournal.com]

I know. There was so much that was beautiful, even poetic about that episode but I just. I just really didn't expect to be ripped apart like that. Again. And it simply comes down to the being apart. And apart so brutally. Dean knows what goes on down there. How will that boy live knowing that? *cries* some more. He deserves a break.

I love that Sam found redemption and that Dean trusted Sam and all of those issue were resolved (And OMG Impala LOVE!!), but yeah.. the shine was taken off all of that knowing how god damn broken Dean will be.

*HUGs* Time for a fandom fix!
:D

[debbiel66.livejournal.com]

I actually do see them as healed, in a way that only Supernatural can deliver. The rift between them is healed, and honestly, that was what has broken my heart over the past two seasons. Everything else - heaven, hell, suburbia - it can all be fixed.

That's how it is with soul mates, you know. :)

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Healed yes. Their relationship is stronger. They are stronger. They've learned such a lot about themselves and each other. So, yes. There indeed a positive note there.

I just want some happiness for them both. And I know we still have another season for that to happen... I just hope Kripke can give them that. Give us that.

Surely when Sam returns to Dean they can both take stock and realise that they have indeed saved the world and they can actually celebrate. That trip to the Grand Canyon would be a good place to start I reckon.

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[yourlibrarian]

Would this have been the ending if there wasn't a season 6?!! IT BETTER NOT HAVE BEEN!!!

I think this would have been an even bleaker ending, with Dean left behind as a gatekeeper.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

*meep* I can't contemplate a bleaker ending...

Though, after chatting a bit here I'm seeing it not as bleak as initially thought. There was a hell of a lot of positives in there. It was just so damn heartbreaking watching Dean so broken. Again.

Oh and good call on Lisa and Ben (when we were discussing the list). I felt sure they wouldn't make an appearance again, but you had it totally sussed! :D :D

[varkelton]

OMG, I balled all the way through that scene with Sam telling Dean not to try to rescue him... {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{HUGE HUG}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

[ash48.livejournal.com]

OMG!!!! So saaaad. And when Lu was hitting into Dean and Dean's all "I'm here Sammy, I not going to leave you..." WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh God. How much do those boys adore each other... I just. No words. They even carved their initials into the Imapala... <33333333333333

*HEFFA HUGS*

[http://users.livejournal.com/_sharvie_/]

I'm still kinda in shock about it all. I'm going to have to start saying "Oh my Chuck"!

[ash48.livejournal.com]

I think this one will stay with me for quite a while... whaaaaa!!

Hee! OMC! See if could work... :D :D

Ooohhh - you're on LJ! \o/\o/

[girlmostlikely.livejournal.com]

I'm so, so sorry you're so heartbroken right now, honey. I know exactly how you feel. *hugs*

*hugs more*

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Oh yes. You know, I couldn't really understand you not watching the show anymore. I was totally.. "but it will get better".. but *sigh*. It didn't. Totally got worse. In an angsty way. I mean I still love it to pieces and I am hopeful for a cheerier season 6. But yeah. I understand you better now.

Thanks for the hugs. Needed those.. *hugs back*

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[geckoholic]

*LATE BIG HUGS*

Also, yeah, I totally feel you. Show left me in a puddle on the floor, too. BRING ON S6!!!

[ash48.livejournal.com]

THANKS! I still need them... *hurty, hurt!*

xx