Insta reaction...

[ash48]

Oh fuck. I'm crying. I hate this. Why am I crying over a damn TV show?!

I love my show so much. And I hate my show as well.

Oh God that hurt. I feel empty and gut wrenchingly sad. My show was supposed to make everything all right. Instead I am sobbing like a baby. Honestly. That was the ultimate in Supernatural angst. I always held out that everything would be all right. I really, really believed that. I even told girlmostlikely that every will. be. all. right..... But... *sob*. She knew.

I am a mess of thoughts right now.

Did I like Chuck being the voice of Kripke? Yes and no. Yes, the narrator style added an inevitability and made sense of the books (yay). And added to the oh god fucking sadness of it all. The shout out to the fans? Oh man... I don't know. So weird. Fun (as in Kripke keeps acknowledging us...) but weird. I think I would rather have had a kick ass Sam and Dean save the world ending rather than a Sam dies and Dean finds comfort with Lisa...but I also admire the stance it took. And I realise there was so much more going on than thay... but I can't think beyond my heart ache at the moment.

What's that saying?... Not with a bang, but with a whimper... :(

It came down them being human yeah? At the end of the day our boys are human and ....*sigh* not super heros.

And that's where the love comes in. That was a brave ending. A beautiful ending. So right for their destinies. So sad in reality. Would this have been the ending if there wasn't a season 6?!! IT BETTER NOT HAVE BEEN!!!

Ok. I've gone past insta reaction and gone into thinking about it too much. So I better stop. I haven't read a single reaction post yet. I have no idea what you all are thinking. Alls I know is I need a friggin' HUG!!

Side note: Jared was awesome. The way they shot the mirror scene was wonderful and was my favourite scene.
Jensen was awesome too. So broken. Dean being broken though is so hard to watch though - especially as it has been a constant lately.

I thought season 5 was going to be about healing. Hopefully (dear god!) season 6 be that.

So. In short. I loved it and hated it at the same time. (I have to clean the mascara off my face now).

*hugs* 'cause god damn you Kripke!

Comments

[ancastar.livejournal.com]

Didn't we see flickering lights when angels made their entrances as well (I'm pretty sure we have--I know we always hear wings. But it seems to me Uriel used to appear with flickering lights.)? I took that simply to mean a creature with great powers came and went.

I'd thought it might be God.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

That was my thought also. Castiel's entrance involved a lot of sparks and flickering lights. It makes more sense to me that he's been returned as Sam and not as Lucifer, or a demon.

In fact. He's going to come back clean isn't he? Like Dean did. Good way to cure his blood addiction once and for all! :)

Why isn't it Season 6 yet?! My withdrawals are starting already!

xx

[debbiel66.livejournal.com]

It never would have occurred to me that Sam was not Sam until I read other people's reactions. Lights always flicker when something supernatural is involved. I thought it might just be God dropping Sam off on his way back to wherever God goes between seasons. :)

[ash48.livejournal.com]

HA! God dropping Sam off... I love that imagery...

"Here's your stop Sam. I think you should be ok from here. Sorry for all the messing around. Good job by the way. That son of mind was a pain in the ass. Well done for sorting him out for me. Give Dean my regards".

*iz a little bit loopy from last night's episode*
xx

[debbiel66.livejournal.com]

Love your God carpool talk!

*iz a little bit loopy from last night's episode*

Oh me too. I'm so tired and have so much to do, but all I want to do is comment on other people's posts.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Oh man. I have a heap of things to do this morning, but all I want to do is play in LJ and read and comment and wallow in some fandom hugs. But alas. Real life beckons..

xx

[mara-snh.livejournal.com]

Intriguing theory!

As I recall -- don't hold me to it until I've tortured myself by watching the whole seasons 4 and 5 all over again -- the advent of angels was dramatic popping and exploding lights, horrendous wind, and, on a more modest scale, the flickering TVs and radios. Seems to me the relatively tame flickering of lights was always the demon alert, even in the pilot.

I think Kripke meant for us to be confused so we'd suffer all summer wondering what we'd seen at the end of Swan Song!

[ancastar.livejournal.com]

I think Kripke meant for us to be confused so we'd suffer all summer wondering what we'd seen at the end of Swan Song!

I'm SURE that's why he didn't just leave Sam in the cage all summer. He wants us to think about this and dissect and argue.

He's evil that way.

;-)

[mara-snh.livejournal.com]

I re-watched Swan Song a while ago and it just tore my heart out. When poor beaten Dean keeps crying out to Sam that he wont leave him, oh God, I was choking back tears. Then the scene of Dean kneeling in the dirt before Cas reappears had me bawling -- quietly, though, so as not to wake the husband asleep down the hall. Seeing the lamppost light go out (not flicker, just go out) and Sam's enigmatic face, oh wow. I don't know what we're in for.

Have you read the wonderful LJ meta on the semiotics of color in Serge Ladouceur's lighting design throughout the series? I wish I could remember the writer's username. Anyway, she ascribes potent value to the use of red, blue, and green (which I note are the primary colors of light) as visual cues. Red is for the presence of evil, or temptation. The lamppost light was a dirty sort of red. Then there was no color at all. Fascinating.

Came back to add: Here's the first of two or three really wonderful posts about the use of color in Supernatural. http://zimshan.livejournal.com/205606.html If you go to more recent pages on her LJ and poke around, you'll find more on the subject. I'm going right now to read what she has to say about lighting in Swan Song.

[ancastar.livejournal.com]

I just finished rewatching from the cemetery to the end (I'd just downloaded the files onto my hard drive for vidding), and cried like an idiot. That's the fourth time I've seen those scenes. Their impact doesn't seem to be fading.

And yes, Dean going to be with Sam so he won't be alone when he dies (and of course it nearly killing Dean in the process). And the looks they share when the hole has opened up and Sam is about to jump in. There's a moment where Sam looks at Dean and nods, quick and small. That guts me. The whole thing does. I love these characters so much.

And yes--I know the meta you're talking about. That poster sees things I'd never see on my own. Brilliant.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Oh you found zimshan's post. Awesome isn't it?! I've been absolutely loving her commentary.

Oh and Dean saying to Sam that he won't leave him... Whaaaaaaaaaa! Just so, so painful and heartbreaking and beautiful.
OH BOYS! <333