I wasn't going to do this but..

[ash48]

DAMN! I just have to unload a bit and then I might feel better. I've noticed peeps doing it through vid and fics and art and meta and there's been some amazing stuff. I will vid it out at some point, but in the meantime a few things re

On second watch I tried to be objective, take a step back, look at the way it was shot, the acting, the amount of blood on Dean's face, anything that kept me from bawling again. It was working pretty well until I discovered the moment, the line that makes this all so sad for me...

"Every part of him, every fiber he's got
Wants to die
Or find a way to bring Sam back.
But he isn't gonna do either.
Because he made a promise

WHAAAAAAA! He isn't gonna do either!!?!!! I just. I can't. I just can't reconcile that. I can't reconcile Dean chowing down on dinner knowing... KNOWING, what Sam is going through. I know he needs comfort and I get that and I have no issue with it being Lisa or anything. I just. *sobs* It's Sam! DO something!

Also... that piece of music has been used before. I'm pretty sure of it. In another really sad episode. So damn that piece of music for making it worse. I haven't gone searching, but I'm sure it's been used before.. (?)

And something else. Kripke said good-bye. To us. It was weird to me the first time around but this time I listened to Kripke rather than Chuck and it got me thinking that this is, of course his swan song and after 5 years he said goodbye.

Endings are hard
Any chapped-ass monkey with a keyboard, can poop out a beginning, but endings are impossible.
You try to tie up every loose end, but you never can.
The fans are always gonna bitch.
There's always gonna be holes.
And since it's the ending, it's all supposed to add up to something.
I'm telling you, they're a raging pain in the ass.

Hee! Thanks man. We love you too. :) I wonder if he had any idea how passionate his fans would be when all this started. How easy it was to start this show, but with so many loyal and passionate pains in his ass fans, by the end he just felt more pressure to get it right. But knew he couldn't. There's too many of us to please. No wonder he left us in tears. (And I know he's probably still gonna hang around but he's let go of the reigns).

Personally I have a lot to thank him for. I won't list them all. It's basically everything that fandom brings. From learning how to vid to chatting with people from across the globe. People I consider friends. Wouldn't be here if it wasn't for him. So, THANK YOU sir.

Then's there's this:



I can't think that this (arms stretched out) is a coincidence when we've had quite a few shots of Sam like this:



I wondered if they'd tie those up (there were a few others with Sam in this position; Dream a Little Dream and Jump the Shark to name a couple). They did. I love it when they do that. I do adore you Show. But FU for making me hurt so hard.



Lastly. I do actually want to "vid it out". I have an idea but I'm trying to come up with the quintessential Supernatural song. I know "Carry On My Wayward Son" is probably the one... but other than that? ACDC? Led Zep? Metallica?? *eep*

*phew* I do feel better now. :)

Oooh and also! Got my new MacBook Pro today! Shiny, shiny new laptop! \o\ /o/

Comments

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Ooh - you summed up the boys predicament perfectly.. :(

I'm going to be watching your vids all summer long to get me through.

ARH! I hope my muse kicks in then. Well, my happy muse. I have got a "happy" idea in mind. I might go with that one first instead of that super depressing one that has been jostling for top spot.. :)

xx

[debbiel66.livejournal.com]

Yay!!! Will try to aim happy vibes at you. I am in serious awe of what you do.