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[ash48]

I hated that beyond words.

I am literally sobbing as I type because this actually feels like the end.

What happened to my beautiful, bromancy, interesting, scary, intriguing show? My show that had "something up its sleeve", my show that only ever had brothers at odds with each other FOR A REAL REASON! My show that had brothers who loved each other. My show that knew it's history. My show that WAS NEVER a soap opera. My show.... *sobs*

My heart is breaking so much and it fucking hurts.

I trust that I missed something. To be honest I don't even have the energy to rant. I am so disappointed and hurt. The season cliffhanger is Amelia walking back into Sam's life... just. No words.

I have never witnessed so much distrust, disloyalty, dis-LOVE between the brothers....EVER. Even when they were fighting at the end of S4 there was at least passion. This was just...nothing. All those things without any reason. They were hardly even on the screen together. I think I even detected real hate between them. And if that's supposed to make me tune in to see how they resolve it?...well...yeah. Not so much.

The show has changed. I suppose it had to. So many of you already saw it. I glimpsed it and clawed myself back. But this is what the show has become and that saddens me so, so much.

I know I shouldn't post. I know you want positive stuff. But in one episode it cemented everything I feared this season would turn into. A boring soap opera.

(I will say that it was beautifully filmed. And if it was a soap opera then I am sure it was beautifully written).

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[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thank you. <33

I spent the first half an hour after watching crying (lucky no one else was around /o\) lamenting my beloved show and then I made a few attempts to write some stuff. I couldn't really put into word exactly what it was that made me upset but I think:

of taking care of each other and making each other laugh and risking their lives to save strangers.

is a big part of it. Slowly watching them losing that has been difficult to watch.

The other definitely comes down to Sam's backstory. I've been trying to accept that Sam really didn't look because of all the amazing reasons fans have said he didn't. And to a certain extent I did accept that. I just wish Show had given us a clue about their reasons why Sam didn't look. Instead we had one line "my world imploded" and the rest is us seeing domestic Sam living in a relationship. Up until now the flashbacks have interested me because I thought there might have been some underlying meaning to them all. But it turns out it's just...well, a relationship that ha troubles like any other. If I wanted to watch a relationship drama there are plenty of them around. I just didn't think my show was one of them. :(

Also this:

And instead - I get episodes that I have no interest in watching a second time and wallowing in.

Mostly I have had little to no interest in what's been going on. As such I don't mind Benny and Amelia (and Cas and Crowley and Kevin and Mrs Tran....) but we have been given these lengthy boring scenes giving us their backstories. I get that that might satisfy many fans - but not me. I just don't care enough. Give us a bit and then more the story along.

Unfortunately my hope is slowly fading. I did have it in bucket loads until that one. Now I'm seeing a show that is no longer one that suits me. Perhaps I will wait until they resolve it and get back to fighting supernatural baddies together. Watching each other's back, showing a level of understanding because they know each other THAT well, and just...being brothers again.

(oops sorry to download. Woke up this morning still feeling like crap. Trying to sort all this out in my head).