Help...

[ash48]

Ok guys. I seriously need some intervention. I NEED to see and understand Dean's side of the story in S9. I need to start feeling sorry for him like so many others seem to. I actually mean this. By the end of S9 I was so god damn pissed off with him I can't even find it in my heart to feel bad that he's "become the very thing he hunts". He HAS become the very thing he hunts and not just because he's a demon now. He's been heading toward this for a while. It's actually one part of the S9 story telling that makes a lot of sense to me. He's slowly been blurring those lines and the consequence is what we are seeing now. I know we can feel sympathy for what they are doing to their characters the fact that Dean's actions have lead him here, but I am still struggling (so much!) with why people are still blaming Sam for what's happening to him.

So what the am I missing? (I promise I will listen if you can shed some light).

(this is actually effecting how I am feeling about the show atm and how I react to gifs (etc) that are highlight how bad things are for Dean. I need to stop thinking "but he deserves it!" and start feeling sorry for him. And stop reacting to things being said against Sam.../o\. I just wish I could understand why people are still so hard on Sam. All he did was tell some truths - in ONE episode).

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[ash48.livejournal.com]

*HUGS* you back. In Dean's words..."hold me QR, that was beautiful". And that makes a lot of sense. <333

And interestingly it wasn't tumblr that for me going. It's been a build up of "general" comments I've seen around the place on LJ. It's not hate (not by the posters - but sometimes by other people making comments), it's just an observation that Dean is the way he is because of Sam. And maybe there's actually some truth in that in terms of their history and the way Dean reacts to Sam etc. It's just the constant reference to Sam's words (the single most destructive dialogue ever written I think...) that wears me down. The lack of understanding of Sam's perspective. I know Show made it difficult to see Sam's pov (grrrrrr), but I had hoped there had been a change of heart towards him after the finale (and I think there has been actually, but every now and then I'll come across a flippant comment about Sam not wanting to be brothers and that's the route of all their problems etc.).

What I still don't believe (after all the talk and meta etc etc) is that people were expecting Sam to be ok with what Dean did. I remember after ep 1 the first thing I said was..."boy, Sam is going to be PISSED" (I even played around with the idea that...what if Sam isn't pissed. I left a prompt at a comment meme. Which was hilariously filled). And when he reacted like he should have done - bloody pissed off and hurt - fans are like "what? The bastard! How selfish and mean". It just makes my me scratch my head!

Thank you honey! I'm in for the long haul. I know I've been advised to stay away from meta and comments but it's a major part of the fun of fandom for me. I love the discussion. It usually helps me stick with it - and at the moment I feel like I'm needing a lot of help. ;)

<333