New Vid: Behind Blue Eyes

[ash48]

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Title: Behind Blue Eyes
Vidder: ash48
Song: Behind Blue Eyes by Limp Bizkit
Category: Sam character study / angst
Length: 3.50m
Size 41.4mb
Summary: My love is vengeance, that's never free.

For greyowl88 Your constant support makes me *beam*. And anyone who can watch and comment on all my vids deserves a friggin' medal. I'm all out of those so I hope this vid will do. :)


Links:
Watch: You Tube Downloads: 4shared (.avi) sendspace (.divx)
And an experiment (and a bit presumptuous I suppose), but I have been asked about this: Download for iPods -.m4v
(I'll be curious to know if this works if any one tries it).

vid_the_grid I'm going Vidder's choice for this as I've already used my angst one. :)

Thanks:
I've been lucky to have 2 betas help me out on this. My ever fabulous beta_sharvie_ and the wonderful mithborien. Thanks gals for your keen eyes and awesome suggestions. Special thanks tomaichan808 and my_sn_therapy for their feedback and input. *heffa hugs to you all*

Notes
Right then. I'm going to blab because there's some stuff I want to say about this. So yeah, feel free to skip it. :)

I've been tossing this song around for ages - will I, won't I use it. For me the lyrics were just so perfect for the story and meta I wanted to say about S4 Sam. With stuff like "My dreams aren't as empty as my conscience seems to be", just hit me. But I was reluctant also because I felt the song might be a bit, um sentimental and slow. But those lyrics just leave wouldn't me alone. So here it is.

There's some stuff in here that I was thinking but might not leap out. Like the link I wanted to make between Sam's thirst for killing Lilith is in fact making him turn into the thing he despises the most. So I've gone with symbolising that by overlaying their hands etc.

Also, the idea that Sam was pre-destined to drink demon blood. "Fated" as it were. Quick moments, but that's the thinking behind them.

And lastly the line "No one knows what it's like" - has a double meaning for me. It's not just about Sam lamenting that his brother doesn't understand him or what he's been through but we, the audience, don't much either. We haven't really been given that much insight into what actually drove Sam to saying yes to drinking demon blood for example. That of course, doesn't come out in the vid, but it was one of the motivating factors for choosing this song.

Though this is more of a look at why Sam made some choices and his sense of loneliness.

No money made but comments make me feel nice. :)

Comments

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Oh wow! Thanks so much for your lovely detailed feedback. *rolls around in it*.

I glad I stuck with it too - thanks again for the pokes!! I was so on again, off again... and then all the trouble with pixelation...

And now because I love talking about vidding.... *g*

The start of the vid is interesting in that I initially started with that scene at the beginning of the lyrics and had nothing to start the vid with. So I tried moving it forward and liked the way it set the vid up. So I'm glad you like that bit. :)

To put in the clip with Dean taking Sam’s hand at 3:02 was beautiful. It was connected to the words “my dreams they are as empty”...*bawls*

Yay. I really wanted to show that Sam has "nice" dreams too and they are of having a real connection again with Dean, starting with him returning from hell. I just love the hand holding...oh boys...

And the last scene with Sam walking away.....*cries openly*

I initially had an entirely different ending - bringing it back to him looking into his reflection in the car window by after some feedback from Coastal I decided to move his journey forward instead of going back.

hee! Sorry - I'm sure you didn't need to know all that, but I kinda love blabbing about the process.... :)

Thanks again hun. For everything.

(Oh and I'm sure you can have icons with a non paid account. I did before I upgraded. You get about 15 I think....)

[greyowl88.livejournal.com]

....detailed feedback. *rolls around in it*.

Hmmmm......rolling around in feedback........*imagination feeds pictures*

hee! Sorry - I'm sure you didn't need to know all that, but I kinda love blabbing about the process.... :)

Actually I like hearing about it. And funny enough I thought about it, too, how the vid would have been with it ending in the car again. And I agree that it was a good idea to move his journey forward. That made everything much more real rather than having Sam just think about it in the car. (Am I blabbing now?...lol.)

:D:D

And about the icons, it's like this: I have 15 that I can use for any journal or community entry or for posting a community reply. But when posting a reply to a privat journal I can only use my standard icon. AFTER I had worked that out I found a LJ info explaning it to me....(lol).