New Vid: Behind Blue Eyes

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Title: Behind Blue Eyes
Vidder: ash48
Song: Behind Blue Eyes by Limp Bizkit
Category: Sam character study / angst
Length: 3.50m
Size 41.4mb
Summary: My love is vengeance, that's never free.

For greyowl88 Your constant support makes me *beam*. And anyone who can watch and comment on all my vids deserves a friggin' medal. I'm all out of those so I hope this vid will do. :)


Links:
Watch: You Tube Downloads: 4shared (.avi) sendspace (.divx)
And an experiment (and a bit presumptuous I suppose), but I have been asked about this: Download for iPods -.m4v
(I'll be curious to know if this works if any one tries it).

vid_the_grid I'm going Vidder's choice for this as I've already used my angst one. :)

Thanks:
I've been lucky to have 2 betas help me out on this. My ever fabulous beta_sharvie_ and the wonderful mithborien. Thanks gals for your keen eyes and awesome suggestions. Special thanks tomaichan808 and my_sn_therapy for their feedback and input. *heffa hugs to you all*

Notes
Right then. I'm going to blab because there's some stuff I want to say about this. So yeah, feel free to skip it. :)

I've been tossing this song around for ages - will I, won't I use it. For me the lyrics were just so perfect for the story and meta I wanted to say about S4 Sam. With stuff like "My dreams aren't as empty as my conscience seems to be", just hit me. But I was reluctant also because I felt the song might be a bit, um sentimental and slow. But those lyrics just leave wouldn't me alone. So here it is.

There's some stuff in here that I was thinking but might not leap out. Like the link I wanted to make between Sam's thirst for killing Lilith is in fact making him turn into the thing he despises the most. So I've gone with symbolising that by overlaying their hands etc.

Also, the idea that Sam was pre-destined to drink demon blood. "Fated" as it were. Quick moments, but that's the thinking behind them.

And lastly the line "No one knows what it's like" - has a double meaning for me. It's not just about Sam lamenting that his brother doesn't understand him or what he's been through but we, the audience, don't much either. We haven't really been given that much insight into what actually drove Sam to saying yes to drinking demon blood for example. That of course, doesn't come out in the vid, but it was one of the motivating factors for choosing this song.

Though this is more of a look at why Sam made some choices and his sense of loneliness.

No money made but comments make me feel nice. :)

Comments

[ancastar.livejournal.com]

I'm sure you may have wondered if I fell off the face of the earth. But it's been one of those weeks, complete with more medical drama. I apologize.

This is just gutting, isn't it? I can't imagine anyone watching this vid and finding Sam anything but sympathetic. All the regret, all his anguish came through. You've made him so isolated here (which I believe is in keeping with canon), that it appears he has no one and no way to rescue him(self). Man... His self-loathing and guilt were so evident. I just wanted to wrap him up tight and tell him it was okay.

Poor puppy!

You're so mean to him. ;-)

Wonderful work.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

I'm sure you may have wondered if I fell off the face of the earth.

I did actually. In fact I had a couple of emails ready to send to see if everything was ok. But I thought maybe you were taking some time out ... I'm so sorry to hear you had some more medical drama. I hope everything is ok.

I can't imagine anyone watching this vid and finding Sam anything but sympathetic.

I suppose that's my hope... but I think those that are unsympathetic may not be swayed unfortunately. Though I have had a couple of comments about being able to see Sam in a different light - so that's been nice. :)

I just wanted to wrap him up tight and tell him it was okay.

Oh I know! Me too... though I'm not really sure what Sam needs at the moment and after the last episode I'm even less sure...

Thanks so much for popping in hon. :)