New vid(let): maybe I could be saved...

[ash48]

(*eep* banner by me. I keep trying./o\)

Title: Maybe I could be saved
Vidder: ash48
Music by: Knockin' on Heaven's Door, Bob Dylan
Category: Character study
Length: 1.14m (longer vids seem to be eluding me at the moment. Idek)
Size: 20 mb
Summary: Sam may have been saved from his destiny, but he wasn't saved from the suffering.


Special thanks to counteragent the beta. Your thoughts and suggestions were extremely helpful. *hearts* and to el1ie for the encouraging feedback. (woot!) <33

Download: MediaFire || Stream: You Tube

Notes

I've been wanting to vid Sam's speech from Houses of the Holy for ages. It breaks me every time - looking back and knowing how much Sam suffered, even though he was saved from his so called destiny. For me this vid is about being able to use images to express what I think of when I now hear that speech. I could write an essay about all this - why I chose each image, the connections etc. so if something doesn't make sense feel free to ask...;)

ETA: The "essay" mentioned above. The whys and wherefores of my clips choices etc.



No money made but comments are gratefully and warmly accepted. <33

Comments

[cloex-brosluvr.livejournal.com]

Wow, this was fantastic. You packed so much into a short vid perfectly. Thank you for sharing.

[counteragent.livejournal.com]

DAT ICON. Love it.

[greyowl88.livejournal.com]

You know I'm more a picture than a word person, especially when a video grabs me so much by the heart. So here my personal expression of apprechiation for this heartbrakingly perfect and perfectly heartbraking vid:


{{{HUGS}}}♥♥♥ :)

[ruby-jelly.livejournal.com]

OMG! YOU are so in my head right now! Perhaps I should stop re-watching it? Should I? .... *whimpers in corner*

[gidgetgal9.livejournal.com]

Just perfect and amazing. :)

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much! :)

I was directed to

[cmsserenity.livejournal.com]

come here and show you love (if I adored your vid).

I did.

So....♥ ♥ ♥!!

Re: I was directed to

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much for dropping by and letting me know! <33

[de-nugis.livejournal.com]

I love you and I love Sam Winchester. So much darkness in his story, yet so much overcoming.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thank you hun! He's is incredibly strong and resilient to have overcome so much pain and loss. <33

[colls]

*curled up in a ball quietly sobbing*

Beautiful images. Heartbreaking.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

*huggles* thanks hun.

(lucky we have some happy vids coming up!)

<3

[macaronielbow.livejournal.com]

This is heartbreaking and wonderful!
Oh, Sam.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thank you. <3

[marciaelena.livejournal.com]

That was very well done. Heartbreaking, too.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thank you very much!

Sammy is a heartbreaker for sure...

[chickenfried-jo.livejournal.com]

I've loved that scene for ever. I think you broke me.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

It's a great scene.

*puts you back together*

Thank you. <3

[sinka.livejournal.com]

Oh, Sammy... *chokes*

Seriously, this vid is perfection. Thank you.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much :)

[dotfic.livejournal.com]

Saw this on tumblr earlier and now commenting, OH FINE ASH RIP MY HEART OUT WHY DON'T YOU. ;__; Gah. Oh, Sam.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Hey Dot! Thanks so much for watching.

I'm experimenting with Tumblr. I think I need to over there more to really get a handle on it.

Sorry for the heart ripping. Blame Sam though...it's all his fault!

[auntmo9.livejournal.com]

There aren't even words...so I will just grab my tissues and wipe my tears....

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Poor Sammy indeed brings the tears. :((

(Lucky we have some happy vids coming our way soon!)

x0o

[zara-zee.livejournal.com]

Gorgeous. The scenes, the dialogue, the music...just...perfect! :)

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much. Thrilled you thought so.
xox

[callistosh65.livejournal.com]

Wonderful. Just gripped me by the throat and didn't let go. The speech of Sam's in Houses of the Holy carries so much emotional weight now - and you showcased that perfectly.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thank you hun!.

That scene was powerful at the time and now it just means so much more knowing what happens. I remember thinking at the time that Sam will definitely be "saved", from whatever was coming. No realising just how far they'd take it.

xox

[sarlania.livejournal.com]

That is so beautiful. Oh Sam!!! <3

Now you made me want to go and watch Houses of the Holy again.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

It's a lovely episode, looking back. Sam desperately wanting angels to exist and Dean being so sure they never could.

Thanks for watching and commenting.
xox

[fufaraw]

Gorgeous. Just beautiful, thank you.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thank you! And you're welcome <3

[greyowl88.livejournal.com]

I've come back to ask a question. :) I'm fascinated by the clip choice at 0:37, with Cas moving his hand with the two fingers up. Because really he stands opposite himself encouraging Sam to take his hand. I think that's gorgous. I would love to hear what thoughts went through your head when you chose that.

♥♥♥

Edited for another thought: I suddenly realized that this scene being from where Cas opened the door for Sam, shows Cas really enabling Sam's dark destiny. So we can see what bad will happen while Sam still so hopefully shakes the angel's hand for the first time.
However, my first feeling of this was how Cas nearly "surrounded" Sam from both sides, destined to be part of Sam's destiny.

/ thinky thoughts ;)

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Hi there!

I have SO much to say about this. I am going to write up some deeper notes on this vid. Mainly because it's something I've always wanted to do but also so I can explain my choices here in more depth (so stay tuned).

I will say I hadn't considered that Cas was destined to be part of Sam's destiny. It's a lovely idea. We always connect Cas with Dean, but looking at it like that he's very much connected to Sam as well. I mean, he IS connected because of the things he's done but I never considered it to be pre-destined.

Interesting...

I'll have more to say later.

*hugs* (thanks for the thinky and the question...)

[kj-svala.livejournal.com]

oh, wow ... O.O

this is made of awesome! I love the combination of the dialogue and the images, and the music. It gives what Sam says much more power (then it already has). It`s not easy, being a Winchester, and this vid shows why.

THANK YOU! for making, and sharing, this awesome video

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thank you SO much sweetie. That means a lot. <3

Hee.. It's not easy being a Winchester. That should be a slogan! Their family motto.... OH BOYS!

[big-heart-june.livejournal.com]

*clutches heart* this is so beautifully done with that gorgeous voiceover...ugh, this gives me ALL THE FEELINGS..SAMMMMMY ♥♥♥

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thank you! It's such a lovely speech and every time I listen to it I think of what Sam's been through.

Thanks so much for watching and commenting. <3

[elsewhere91.livejournal.com]

This vii is so beautiful and just....SAM!! *cries*
I've alwasy loved that speech and entire scene in houses of the holy (plus the episode is one of my favs) but this vid just shows how much Sam has been through and with that speech...wow. This vid is amazing.

Also your banner is really awesome :)

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Hi! Thank you so much for such lovely feedback. <33

Oh, I'm glad you think the banner is ok. I know very little about graphics so I'm just playing with stuff (so I don't have to keep asking others to make them for me!)

Thanks again.
xox

[chemm80]

This is really beautiful, hon. I hadn't watched that episode in ages; I'd almost forgotten how compelling that scene was, and framed like this...well...it's so much what I love about these two. Thanks for reminding me.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much. <3 I often just watch that last scene because it's so wonderfully them. Sam opening up his heart and Dean listening and comforting him. We don't get scenes like that very often (even less now) so I love coming back to it.

thanks so much for watching and commenting.

xox

[lady-eilthana.livejournal.com]

This makes perfect sense, don't worry.

One thing I like about the show is that even if we look back on dialogue from season 2 (works with season 1 dialogue as well!), it still makes sense if you look at it from a season 7 (almost season 8) perspective. :)

Also: SAM! ;___;

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thank you! And yes...I just love that even now the show sticks to what went before. It hasn't forgotten where the characters have been (mostly..).

thank you so much for the feedback.

xox

[just-ruth.livejournal.com]

Oh. My.

arliss was right. This is beautiful. This is incredible.

Oh, thank you!

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much! <33

[pocochina.livejournal.com]

You heartbreaker! This is gorgeously done.

That monologue got to me even the first time I watched the episode: how could Sam, with his awful life, still have had such hope for something better? And I love that this vid shows how even though it all fell down around him, brutally and often, he still has that hope.

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much.

Something I love about Sam (and Dean) is his ability to just carry on and use what's happened to him to make him stronger. He wanted so much for himself and over time he knows that it's no longer about what he wants. It's very sad, but it's also what makes him so amazing.

Thanks so much for watching and commenting.
xox

[cydsa.livejournal.com]

Beautiful

That's all

♥

[ash48.livejournal.com]

Thank you! <3