New Vid: Behind Blue Eyes

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Title: Behind Blue Eyes
Vidder: ash48
Song: Behind Blue Eyes by Limp Bizkit
Category: Sam character study / angst
Length: 3.50m
Size 41.4mb
Summary: My love is vengeance, that's never free.

For greyowl88 Your constant support makes me *beam*. And anyone who can watch and comment on all my vids deserves a friggin' medal. I'm all out of those so I hope this vid will do. :)


Links:
Watch: You Tube Downloads: 4shared (.avi) sendspace (.divx)
And an experiment (and a bit presumptuous I suppose), but I have been asked about this: Download for iPods -.m4v
(I'll be curious to know if this works if any one tries it).

vid_the_grid I'm going Vidder's choice for this as I've already used my angst one. :)

Thanks:
I've been lucky to have 2 betas help me out on this. My ever fabulous beta_sharvie_ and the wonderful mithborien. Thanks gals for your keen eyes and awesome suggestions. Special thanks tomaichan808 and my_sn_therapy for their feedback and input. *heffa hugs to you all*

Notes
Right then. I'm going to blab because there's some stuff I want to say about this. So yeah, feel free to skip it. :)

I've been tossing this song around for ages - will I, won't I use it. For me the lyrics were just so perfect for the story and meta I wanted to say about S4 Sam. With stuff like "My dreams aren't as empty as my conscience seems to be", just hit me. But I was reluctant also because I felt the song might be a bit, um sentimental and slow. But those lyrics just leave wouldn't me alone. So here it is.

There's some stuff in here that I was thinking but might not leap out. Like the link I wanted to make between Sam's thirst for killing Lilith is in fact making him turn into the thing he despises the most. So I've gone with symbolising that by overlaying their hands etc.

Also, the idea that Sam was pre-destined to drink demon blood. "Fated" as it were. Quick moments, but that's the thinking behind them.

And lastly the line "No one knows what it's like" - has a double meaning for me. It's not just about Sam lamenting that his brother doesn't understand him or what he's been through but we, the audience, don't much either. We haven't really been given that much insight into what actually drove Sam to saying yes to drinking demon blood for example. That of course, doesn't come out in the vid, but it was one of the motivating factors for choosing this song.

Though this is more of a look at why Sam made some choices and his sense of loneliness.

No money made but comments make me feel nice. :)

Comments

Part 2....

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My one teeny tiny concrit (and I really hope you take this as concrit) was that the ending felt a little abrupt to me

Thank you. And yes, concrit is always great. I use beta's so I can get as much of it as I can. :) And I'm impressed that you noticed actually. And vidder will tell you it's dangerous to go into a vid without knowing what to do with the end. And unfortunately I did go into this with no real idea of how to end it. I really didn't want the last chorus but there was no way to cut it (I have about 4 edits in the song already up to that point..), so I played with a few things and decided to take his story up to the point that I think this part of his journey ends, when he leaves Dean. And because I adore the scene where he walks down the stairs and looks back I wanted to somehow incorporate it, so it formed part of the ending for me. But I totally take your point.. it was a tricky one to end because the song didn't have a strong ending..

I liked your Dean vid to Hurt a lot but I think I like this one more :))
It means a lot to me for you to say that. This vid won't be as well received (and by that I mean the number of comments) to the Dean vid because generally I believe there are less people interested in Sam's story, so I kinda like that you liked this one more... *G*

Sorry I ranted so much, but your wonderful feedback gave me an excuse to talk about the process. It's something I love to do, but the opportunity doesn't come up very often. So thanks! :)

What's next on your vidding to do list??

Ah, Well, in a whisper I can say that I'm working on a kind of Channel Hopping 2 - and I HATE to admit it because I vowed I wasn't going to do that, but I've got some ideas floating around that I just have to play with. Plus I want to make vid that looks at the children in the Show. I've just found a song that I think might highlight the children's plight in SPN - including the wee!chesters. Oh and there's a few other ideas floating about as well. I wish I had more time, but back to school, so time is now limited.

Thanks again! And sorry I said so much!:D :D